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Sup ...there are so many assignments kicking in one by one...guess have not so much time to blog...

Have been imagining. what my life would be 8/9 years from now... It is so unpredictable and every step i take would lead to different future.... As you know...my stupid brain always tend to think more than expected... There is at one point my brain imagine my future and link to the girls i like... You see...different partner sharing the same lives as you will really make a big difference...

In my dictionary...there are two different type of girls... One is nice..abit serious...kind...and materialistic... Another one is nice..playful...active...and not a spendthrift...but very social-able...

If my life ended up with girl type1... I picture myself... having my own business, earns alot of money and work very hard.... In this case...I MUST own a business...if not i really can't afford the best for her... Because if I have girl type 1 as my wife... i would want her to be happy... I just picture myself trying very hard to earn money and to support my family... For sure I wont let my wife work, therefore I am the only one working in the family and there is a heavy responsibility on my shoulder.... Yes yes i would be happy and stuff... But i do not think that it is what I really want... You see my brain thought this up when i was in the shower... and you know people tend to think alot when they are in the shower...so this fast vision came into my mind... If i were to have girl type1 as my wife... I gotta study hard from now onwards... That will lead to a more secure future for me and my future family... Which is so not me...

The next is girl type2... I would sacrifice everything i have to find a girl type 2... This kind of girl are really extinct from this world already... There are a few more out there...but most of them already have found their partner... So it is very hard to find... because I do not spend that much ... due to laziness... I am lazy to go shopping, eat nice food and etc...BTW i do not have taste buds... all nice foods are still foods to me.... I do not care so much on whether is the food nice or not... For me it is still food... Like my late grandmother once said... No matter what you eat... it will still be digested and it will become the shit we shit today... Don't tell me that if you eat some more expensive food you will have a different output from your ass... And that saying is stuck in my brain since then.... You see...my results are not that good... I failed 8 out of 10 subjects during my high school life... That is the "best" i archived for my whole life... And I am not a very good student... What am I? I am lazy, think I am the best but actually I am not... With my "good" attitude... I might not succeed in the future... I might end up working under people and never gonna be a boss... But the most i can be is maybe a boss of a small small computer shop... thats my vision... and spending rest of my life with girl type2... I would be satisfied enough...


K thats all I think..gotta go back to my assignments...

Not that I cared less...just that I stop showing....


Peace out!!

Hmm

These few days had too much time in my hands...so i blog about all the crap i think off.... Well because i really have nothing to do...

Recently i don't know what got into me..start talking to myself.... LOL and my best friends are animals/pets.... OOH...a stray dog...stare at em and start talking.... I just got a feeling that bond between animals.... Maybe i was an animal in my previous life..lol Since i m so into animals... Technically i talk to them alot though... Too many problems...dont want to tell human beings..since there's a saying that some of them dont care and some of them glad i have problems.... So.owh well..animals will do... Especially dogs...there are loyal listeners... Although they wont give me feedback.... but talking to them will somehow gave me idea on how to solve my problems... Magically.. i dont know why...but it worked most of the times... you guys should try it at home though...

Sometimes really sad see dogs tied up and not running freely... That sad feeling is there...but still.. i cannot do anything yet... I have nothing and i can do nothing to help them...feel so useless at times.... You see...now i have nothing... No big house enough for dogs to run around.... No money to afford them... Cant pay for their food... Although i might be working next week but still i dont think the money is enough for me to have a dog in my house... Sometimes i feel that those stray dogs are happier than those dogs that are tied up at home... I admit although stray dogs have to find their own food and sometimes need to fight over food with other dogs... but still happier than tied up dogs...although they dont have love from human beings.... Especially those active dogs....when i see them get tied up... Seriously if i were tht dog.... i prefer to die though...Its like i m a talkative person.... and i m not to speak a word for the rest of my live...i will seriously go crazy ....



A man who fears suffering is already suffering from what he fears.
Michel de Montaigne



Peace OUT!!

So...

Seriously need to get a job though.... dont want stay at home n do nothing..i can play computer whole day... Need to get a job n earn my own pocket money because i dont want to depend on my parents too much...they always give me the look everytime i spend too muchh....zzzz  The other reason why i must get a part time job... Is that i dont want to face family...zzz... No freedom at all.... Actually wanted to go interview with my friend today..but he study so we change the date... N i told my parents... Then the comparism starts...saying that see he so hardworking n study n shit... N i sleep until 12pm... Seriously i dont want to say anyhthing...let them do the stupid comparism...zzz...

Usually saturday night is my night with my buddy... we will hang out at night just the two of us n talk crap until 11... And usually i didnt have dinner with my family on saturday night... So today was like forced to go out with them.... K FINE... go out... eat in this chinese restaurant.... didnt talk anything for me... just minding my own business and eating.... This is my life when i m at home.... Dont communicate..because i know everytime i open my mouth...all the things will be bad to me... Parents will take thosse points n turn em against me...zzz... Fuckthisshit.... If i know i will get scolded for any random shit... might as well i keep quiet.... Waste my time trying to argue back n i lazy to argue back.... 1 day per week having my personal time with my friend also a problem to them... what shit is "family outing".... No such thing in my dictionary...k family outing..i sit down there quite...as if i dont exist.... whats the point? Lame.... I guess I m the only one in the world that woudn't want to go outings with my family... I got a feeling this holiday the trip to Hong Kong..i will b forced to go...zzz... I dont like flying to places i dont like.... What can i do when i go Hong Kong... cant buy the things i like... they will complain bag is not big enough and wouldnt want to pay more for the xtra weight... What is the point...


Basically i think there is something wrong with me... In high school...got to one point that i hated girls...alot.... Thanks to my mom....so i bully girls who acted like my mom... Think she is too clever... arrogant...and wants to take control of everything.... That was my own problem i guess at that stage... So girls who r like her...made me damn freaking pissed...to basically i hate girls in my high school life... For now its more better because i dont care that much any more...


M thinking of making my blog private...because its too open... any random cousin of mine that read this blog might tell my parents about it and will get a nice nagging...zzz... Lazy...i dont and do not plan to tell them anything because i will get nagged at the end of the story....LAME!!!



A man cannot reason with the woman he loves: he cares about her too much






Peace OUT!!