Different mindset, Different thinking, Different personality, Different goal, Different person

Hello, its been like almost 5 months i haven't touch my blog its because the layout has run out of position and I'm that lazy to find another template for my blog... Hence, the laziness and didn't blog much, well in my defense during Q4 of 2013 i was having my finals study period so didn't have any time to sit down and write something, those times were intense due to studying...

After my finals examination, i got 3 months of semester break and as expected, i went back to work at an animal shop, since i do not really like corporate work at that point of time. Thats when it all changes, although i gave my resignation letter 2 days after my first day, i know thats what i wanted and its whats best for me. Actually, i would have thought that i will regret my decision of working in a pet shop, but as it turns out, its directly the opposite. Over the 1 month 2 days of working at the pet shop, i  am able to figure out what i want to do with my life and its definitely not at a pet shop picking up dumps of dogs although i have no problem doing so... This 1 month and 2 days really changed how i look at things and understand more about what the hell are people thinking. And yes, this is another recap post that i usually do after a long period of semester break. Im not gonna type essays for the rest of the post so im just gonna give a header and elaborate on it... Dont judge me... :)

(All of my examples are not belittle-ing my friends and colleagues, I respect them and their job, its just my personal point of view, nothing personal)

Life will be simple

All I can say is working at a pet shop, you will live a simple life. This is not ideal for most of the human beings. Having that salary and that working hours, you will not have any time for yourself. Yes, this job does not require high qualifications and anybody with or without experience can apply for the job. This job will have only a slight chance of having politics in the workplace, it will be competitive to fight for the commission, otherwise its a decent place for people who do not like politics in their workplace. BUT working in a pet shop, with that pay... You will not dare to even to think on going for a vacation, because financially its difficult to survive in a big city and have alot of money left in the bank at the end of the month.

People will look down on you

There will always be assholes in every department in every sector that is rude and act like they are rich and nothing else matters. They think that people in who works at pet shops are not educated and do not deserve much respect. One thing they do not know is some are having financial difficulties and are unable to further studies after high school. 

Next is the people in general, people who are at our sides, not customers of the shop. In my experience, working in the pet shop really lower my self esteem and confidence by alot, im earning that 1k per month and other people are making big bucks. I've been silenced up in a conversations by using money, something which I do not have and apparently the other person has, alot ... Worst of all I've never tried being silenced up by a girl... So swallowing my temper at that time was one of the hardest thing I've done since young, usually i have something to say back...But at that point of time, i know i got nothing, I am indeed do not have as much money as her. When you thought the worst is over... There comes somebody who thinks that I cannot afford my own lunch. Yes, my salary is low... The food prices around my workplace is sky high... Yes, im limiting my budget to 10 bucks per day for 3 meals.. Yes i'm eating chocolate bar for dinner... NOT because i cannot afford the food price at my area, its because i am trying out the lifestyle that i might end up in...IF i do not study hard now... I'm ok with anybody inviting me to eat lunch with them and them paying for the meal afterwards... But come to me with a take away lunchbox? And say wanna treat me? That's just downright proving that u have something wrong with your brain...

You can't actually be taken seriously (Depends on what type of friends you usually mix with)

Being the lowest underdog of a gang of friends, having the worst lifestyle among friends and not to mention, earning the least money in a gang of friends. People might think, 'hey its not that bad, i choose to live my life like that and money is not always important'. Yea starting its easy to cope, but when time goes by...it will start to get into your head. 

Skip friends and your surroundings aside, lets talk further... Talk about life partners shall we? Picture this, working as a 'Pet Care Consultant'... Imagine how would your partner tell his/her friends what their boyfriend/girlfriend is working as. Imagine meeting his/her parents...when they ask 'So tell me what do you do for a living'... 'Owh uncle aunty... I work as a pet care consultant at a pet shop' The first thing they will hear is 'working at a pet shop'... And then they will start figuring out how much you earn per month... Ofcourse, parents would expect their children to find a decent partner with a decent job and that has a high chance of getting married and not worry about their finance problems. 

People's offday, your workday; People's workday, your offday

The header of this section has already spoken for itself.... The start of the few months of working, you wouldn't feel anything serious but once you work long period... You start hanging out with your friends at night and when the next day is a Saturday, you still need to head home to sleep earlier while your friends have fun outside without you. Its just a matter of time that when will this thinking get inside your head and you finally realize stuff and want to change for the better. What if your other half does not work at a pet shop and works regular hours on weekdays and breaks on weekends. Relationships will be hard to maintain since you both don't like meet regularly and like literally regularly, one of you will be working at all times and probably too tired and want to rest on your offday but still it depends on the efforts

Unable to provide

I was quite close to one of my female colleague and was like chatting in group chats and all... Then until one day she says that her husband/fiance is abit jealous. Its like every time she gets a message notification, her husband will ask is it me. This may sound funny to some person, but I really do not want to do stupid stuff and ruin a relationship. I do not know what level of jealousy is her husband at or is it like furious jealous or just mild jealous. I can't predict how other people will feel but if it were me, I would be want-to-burn-the-other-guy's-house furious. When you know somebody is better than you and can provide what you can't, it really increases the insecurity level to it's max. Yes, many comments will be like saying it also depends on the girl if she's loyal and what not. But this is a guy's principle, to give whats best for their other half and make sure she is happy. Therefore, in order for myself not to go through that kind of lifestyle, worrying and feeling insecurity... I probably wont get into a relationship in another 5 years at least because I could not afford and still NOT QUALIFIED for that position.

Never tell anyone your problems, 20% don't care and 80% are glad you have them

Few of my friends were like advising me not to tell everybody anything that they ask. Yeap I admit then whoever ask me anything, i'll tell the truth...Regardless of the question, any personal question, you dare to ask i will dare to answer you... But must see how close are we and whether are you ready to know the answer that will come out from my mouth or not.. From now on, i'll try to limit what i tell people whom I just met and not so close with them, in order to prevent future back-stabs.

You guys took my presence for granted. act like as if I was not there... You will never know how pissed off I was at that point of time, I respected you guys and treat all of you without putting on a mask and this is what I get in return? Well Played

The knife you all stabbed behind my back, too bad it didn't manage to kill me. I have friends and cousins who wanted to help me take out those knifes... But... I'll leave it there for the time being... To remind myself what I been through. To remind myself don't be so naive. When the time is right, I will take them all out...and slowly one by one stab all of you...not in the back...in the face...and i'll make sure all of you have a taste of what i felt and multiply the feeling by more than you can ever withstand. And especially the one whose knife is the deepest, I will take the knife out, change it to a fucking machete or a fucking katana and do what I must to have my revenge. You've pissed off the wrong horoscope.

If one day I wake up and I do not have the feeling of burning your house down, I will chop off my head and let you to use it as a stool. 

Peace Out

Ask yourselves, WHY NOT ME?

Have it ever occur to you when you get hyped about something or someone where you wished to be like them one day? You do notice that every time you say that you want to be like somebody successful but even you yourself thinks it's not gonna work. Some people wanted to be a singer and people demotivates them by saying, that how many people will be as successful as those stars. Who are we to dream about that we want to be as famous as those rich and successful stars?

Well, it had occurred to me that when my dad says those people in cyber cafes are wasting their money and time. I counter his argument by saying, who knows which day they will be a famous gamer and make more money than you every year? He will say something like, so many gamers, how many gamers will actually become famous. Although he becomes famous, if he's still not the top player, he won't earn much money also.

 You see, this is where teenagers gets demotivated and forget about their purpose of life, their passion and dream. When people doubt your abilities and give you statistics like there are so many billion people in the world, u out of those few billion, what are your odds. This is the time where you need to tell yourselves not to quit. Every famous people had gone through what we are going through right now. People's and self doubt about their abilities. If they didnt say why can't i become famous, one out of a billion is still a probability that i will succeed.

While steve jobs is still in his garage doing his work on computers, Microsoft is already quite a big company at that time. Steve Jobs had many struggles and met many failures. I bet many had told him to give up on what he is doing now and do something more reasonable. If he'd quit at that time, there will be no Macbooks and even the iphone. Its himself who said to his inner self, who says going against one of the biggest software companies in the world is a bad idea. 'If everybody says i can't, i will prove them wrong'.

There are many situations that we can use this 'why not me' concept. For example, getting first class honors in degree, getting selected to work with the top companies of the world or even getting the girl/guy of our dreams. I know sometimes lecturer's will discuss about the passing percentage of a specific subject, maybe the failure rate is 75% or maybe its even 90%. Why can't you be one of the 10% that passed the test?


One of my goals is to bankrupt company X, because i couldn't withstand how they treat their staffs and giving their staffs bullshit working hours with bullshit salary. I told one of my colleague while i was working at company X that i would want to see this company go bankrupt one day. She will call me to dream on, in N years this company will be more recognized and will be more stable due to having many more outlets and bigger target audience. Yes, i do notice all those facts in the future, even though if i fail in the future, at least i tried proving other people wrong.

Yes, i know that talking is easy and do not need effort. Although many people look down on you and don't think that you can succeed, you yourself must be confident with yourselves. If you yourself do not have confidence or believe in yourself, nobody will. Bottom line, you want to become a professional gamer? Go ahead and do it, at least get into competitions and try to improve your skills. There will always be one individual that differs from other individuals that says to themselves that they wan to be in the minor statistic that are going to succeed. ARE YOU ONE OF THEM?

Peace Out

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Heart VS Head

Have you ever felt that you know what you really want but then your heart chooses another thing? Feeling that you should listen to your heart and not your head? Always confused on which to decide because you're afraid that if you listen to your heart you might end up heartbroken; or if you listen to your head, you might missed out a great opportunity?

If up to this point you don't know what am I talking about you can close this window...

You see, we are all humans.... We all have feelings, sometimes you will get very desperate in need for attention or maybe that other party's attention. You will have that kind of feeling where you think you can just conquer the world with that feeling. And as time goes on, you will think its getting great between the both of you. But you need to face the fact, this is your heart, telling you that it's worth a shot because the heart makes decision based on feelings. On the other hand, the head makes some sort of calculations, critical thinking and predicting what will happen if u do this or if you do that. 

You see, the head and the heart are like husband and wife... The heart = wife, head = husband. The wife, gets to go crazy and all... Doing emotional stuff without knowing what's coming towards them. Where as the brain, the husband must remain sane at all times. The wife gets to go insane, but the husband needs to know whats the right thing to do and make decisions based on analyzing and evaluations. Guiding the wife to the right direction by pulling her back when she is lost. Because you yourself, will be making the final decision whether to make things happen or leave it alone. We as humans need the help of this loving husband and wife to help us make decisions. 

If, people only decides to go with the head, we will be doing many plain stuff and our life won't be interesting. If we only follow what the heart tells us, we will end up in situations that we never thought we would end up in. Take our parents for example, both of them having different opinions and how they view things. If you only follow the mother side for example, or being forced to follow the mother's opinions. Yes, we will be having a good time doing what our mother tell's us to do, with that we also will have a chance to end up in a position where we wouldn't want to be in the first place. If we follow the father's side, we will quite enjoy our life, but will not have any interesting things happen along the way.

This is why, we must always make decisions after it has gone through the husband and the wife. I mean there is also another party, 6th sense or some might say something inside you knows its right. Well, that might be a good source to listen or might be a bad idea but will sound good in the first place.

Peace Out... I am not sure what am I writing..but suddenly feel like writing