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Seriously need to get a job though.... dont want stay at home n do nothing..i can play computer whole day... Need to get a job n earn my own pocket money because i dont want to depend on my parents too much...they always give me the look everytime i spend too muchh....zzzz  The other reason why i must get a part time job... Is that i dont want to face family...zzz... No freedom at all.... Actually wanted to go interview with my friend today..but he study so we change the date... N i told my parents... Then the comparism starts...saying that see he so hardworking n study n shit... N i sleep until 12pm... Seriously i dont want to say anyhthing...let them do the stupid comparism...zzz...

Usually saturday night is my night with my buddy... we will hang out at night just the two of us n talk crap until 11... And usually i didnt have dinner with my family on saturday night... So today was like forced to go out with them.... K FINE... go out... eat in this chinese restaurant.... didnt talk anything for me... just minding my own business and eating.... This is my life when i m at home.... Dont communicate..because i know everytime i open my mouth...all the things will be bad to me... Parents will take thosse points n turn em against me...zzz... Fuckthisshit.... If i know i will get scolded for any random shit... might as well i keep quiet.... Waste my time trying to argue back n i lazy to argue back.... 1 day per week having my personal time with my friend also a problem to them... what shit is "family outing".... No such thing in my dictionary...k family outing..i sit down there quite...as if i dont exist.... whats the point? Lame.... I guess I m the only one in the world that woudn't want to go outings with my family... I got a feeling this holiday the trip to Hong Kong..i will b forced to go...zzz... I dont like flying to places i dont like.... What can i do when i go Hong Kong... cant buy the things i like... they will complain bag is not big enough and wouldnt want to pay more for the xtra weight... What is the point...


Basically i think there is something wrong with me... In high school...got to one point that i hated girls...alot.... Thanks to my mom....so i bully girls who acted like my mom... Think she is too clever... arrogant...and wants to take control of everything.... That was my own problem i guess at that stage... So girls who r like her...made me damn freaking pissed...to basically i hate girls in my high school life... For now its more better because i dont care that much any more...


M thinking of making my blog private...because its too open... any random cousin of mine that read this blog might tell my parents about it and will get a nice nagging...zzz... Lazy...i dont and do not plan to tell them anything because i will get nagged at the end of the story....LAME!!!



A man cannot reason with the woman he loves: he cares about her too much






Peace OUT!!