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Yesterday i went to an award giving event which my uncle's company won an award.... It was quite ok and it quite an eye opener for me, as i am not that exposed to formal events...wearing formal wear (monkey suit)....Meeting powerful people and knowing important people that might make a change for our future....

As i noticed, an uncle sitting next to me.... Heard from my cousin, he was the company's top salesman and now he has stroke which made it harder for him to eat or use much energy... That night, i witnessed true love man... His wife, who looks quite young... Takes care of her husband like a small kid.... Patiently and full of love... When the food is served, she sliced those meat into smaller portion for her husband to eat... Without helping herself with the food first, she made sure that her husband eats first.... Its quite touching... Knowing that a wife takes good care of her husband who went through stroke... 

Then....my "creative" brain started to think ridiculous things....which is the reason why am i blogging at 1.02 a.m. and not studying for my finals on Wednesday.... At that time, my brain was like thinking... Apart from what i witnessed, idk how my brain managed to pick up this kind of thoughts.... Its something like...people use to say that we will end up marrying somebody else younger than us.... We will usually end up marrying the girl that is in the same workplace as us.... I mean, is there no marriage that is brought up since high school or college anymore? Chances are very low, to be honest. Its easy to hang out with a person, but to live under the same roof, that's another challenge. Can they? 

Randomly i have this fear, fear of knowing the fact that if i get into a relationship now, i cannot like maintain the relationship until i grow up.... K With this fear, its quite sad to for me to find out that fact. I mean there are still percentage that we are going to end up marrying our partners since like high school, college or universities. I've seen relationships same sort happened before and quite believe the existence. I hereby really want to tell the future guy who is going to guarantee your life and make you happy in the future, that he is one lucky asshole..... Any chance of hurting you, i would really like to burn down his house, car, etc. I still believe there are still guys out there who will do anything just to make you happy.



The worst worst feeling is i don't know what you want ; and i don't know what i want...

Every minute i spend without you is every minute i waste...


Peace out