Hey!

So boring...never liked holidays...rather spend my time with friends....

Went Petronas Science center...saw 1 girl...reminds me of my x crush... I think this girl is secondary school if i m not mistaken...really looked like her... :) Well that reminds me of the time when i m in high school...Form 4...I am in the "newspaper delivery" service with my friends...so during assembly we can walk around the school where everybody else stone there listening to principal "singing"... So that time i had my eye on 1 girl...she was a school prefect and she is in charge of a specific spot in the school... So during one assembly...i wanted to talk to her, so my 2 best friends accompany me to find her...She was at 1 end of the corridor and i was at the other...Walking towards her...the feeling is damn special... Its a mixture of nervous and "IDK what to say"... So was walking walking...half way i wanted to turn back...But i guess its weird for a guy to walk half way n turn away... Owh and FYI...i don't know this girl, so its like i m approaching her to get to know her kind of stuff...Never tried that before though...and i know Asians don't really does that i guess? Owh well...When i approached her, there's no sense of rejection so i manage to vomit out a few questions... Yeah she was shy n i was like damn nervous...please...lol...First time man...Scary... So yeah that was a scary experience when i was in high school...this girl from the science center reminded me of her...Owh well...xD *sweet memories... i still remember the moment where i punch the wall because i was too scared... *my approach wasn't once...its like more than 7 TIMES! and i only get 1 correctly...others i freaked out and walked away...kena scolded by my friends...xS

Owh well...i guess the opportunity to approach the girl that i like which i don't know is not gonna happen again? After high school...its more complicated..you can't go and approach and girl and talk like that... You will be given one tight slap.... And its straight forward.... If the girl doesn't like you...there will be a big red light there...and maybe you will b turned down right on the spot... (Wootz? Why today so got feel to write love stories..xD)

Owh ya...anybody has the feeling of being liked by the person that you wanted to be only friends? So...interview session..how's the feeling? good or scary? Why is it good? Because you have the attention? How is the feeling of being liked by a person nice again? Please...If you don't like him or her...just tell them man...dont freaking waste their time and energy...they are better of with somebody if its not you... Some like the feeling which i think the feeling is very scary! You can see their every moves...everything they said then you will have a picture of them liking you in their mind...WTH...scares the shit out of me...Aint nice Aint nice...dont like... Thats why when you like someone...DO NOT show it out...i repeat DO NOT show it out...it will turn out negative if that person don't know how to handle the feeling...Owh well..xD...thats life...damn interesting...thats the risk you gotta take....awesome shitz...

In my post all the things are #JUSTSAYING!! I REPEAT #JUSTSAYING....doesn't apply to any individuals...awesome shitz eh? but seriously its #JUSTSAYING! don't take it personally...#truestory

I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes i catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you every now and then.

So...

Sup guys...have been quite some time i didnt update blog...Lazy to write anything...When i have the feel...i wasn't with my computer...so just screw the updating...

So...how's life? Pfft...what a bad starting line...


Is female and male that different? Why the stories i heard from my female friends always give me a nice shock... Saying that their other female friends treat them this n that way... Ain't female and male the same? I mean no offence some say female are abit more complicated than men... #truestory? It seems like female's friendship...got abit complicated... Maybe i m just hearing one side of the story...i haven heard the worst in males..but so far that i can see...male friends are more...true? Like in movies and shit...female friends always backstab female friends and have problems with female friends...well for guys...when they have issues....its mostly about girls...aint that right? So back to topic... When female are with female...idk...they seem abit fake with each other...not being their true self and talk what they don't feel like talking...

Well for me..my guy friends are like all my bestie...With them i can talk crap and shit stuffs...Guys and guys can talk for hours on craps and shits... And they dont backstab their friends and are true to their friends....(or is it the male friends i mix with are just awesome?) Me and my old school mate...although didnt meet for many months because he is busy...when we hang out...we can talk for hours and still thinks the time is insufficient... Guys and guys don't need what high-tea...go fancy restaurants to have a drink and chat... Like what me n my friend did last night was 2 guys i was fetching him home...so in the car we had a nice conversation also....#easypeasy... Even when i reach his house...we can sit in the car and chat for awhile because we don't know when only we can have the opportunity to have a nice conversation like this...We were like old school mates...but the friendship there is still like normal...like how we act in our high school life... And its funny though...in my high school life...we all had issues among each other....always have fights and arguments....now we all hang out...its like all best friends...although some haven change...still that bit bit sarcastic and monkey-like...but yeah they're just aww-sum


you see....the thing is....i don't know if in the future i can have these awee-sum friends with me... In my working days....when we're still all single...maybe come out mamak stores to chill and talk about shit stuffs in our high school life and complain about our love life...xD I don't know how long we have the opportunity to have fun like this... I can't imagine when we all get married...xD ....the gay guys talk will be much lesser....because we all need to focus on our families...children and wife... :)...


(The way i look at things is the way things happen around me...If the things happening around you is not the same as me...then dun blame me for stereotyping...)





Friday night...me and my friends go to this competition at this small shopping mall? Basketball competition...well... This awesome girl..she is there...:) talk to her alot that night...have funny conversations and stuff.... When i got home...i was like...re-call the moments we had... Only i realize...nah...i do not like her ... Well i think i like her because she is nice and friendly...although she don't look hot...but personality that matters right? So i was like acting "myself" in front of her...haha...which is not the normal thing i do in front of the girl i like.... I was comfortable in front of her...can talk many crap and shit like i used to...and enjoyed the moment...

Is it me or is it all guys will act differently in front of the person he like? Or is it all human beings are like that...Well for me if i act normally in front of any girl...means i don't like them... I wished its easy to like someone new...:) then the pain would be less... But i couldn't...i envy people can recover from a break-up in like days and going out with another girl already? Owh well...guess its just old-fashion-me... :)))









Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.



Peace out Yo!

Combination of 3 days

OkOk..where do i start? I try my best to remember the things that I've done...This is gonna be like a freaking diary....:(

Okay... Last Friday, was the a memorable day...THE DAY THAT I STOP BEING A VEGETARIAN.... *proud...

Then its Saturday...Morning was boring because i slept until 11pm because i played Pokemon with Eric until err 2pm? LOL...Lifeless...Then woke up at 11 played nba until 1.30pm. Then head yi jun's house to fetch him and go eric's house to fetch him and went to sunway club gym. Yi jun was like wondering "eh, gym got leng lui?" LOL...Me and eric stared at him...haha...we know he was joking...What to do...boys...:p... After err lets say 1 hour of gym? i think less than that...wasn't in the mood...:(...Then 3 guys went in the steam room to chat...Yi jun..because he is the new guy... We close the door hardly and let the steam water on the ceiling fell on him....and no joke..its damn hot....haha..Thats what eric did to me last time....:( After that we plan to go pyramid find for part-time job de...but then saw the parking all like alot of people...So many cars parked beside the road...And i think was drizzling...so aiya..went back.... Go home do stuffs and 7p.m. go pyramid because i told my parents i wan find job...*desperate for part-time job...:P Once i reached pyramid...i seriously go ever level to find for jobs...and i think i walked the whole pyramid? Or at least also got 80%... and was texting eric blabbing about how pissed i am finding for jobs... Some shop can like put vacancy on the window...and when i go ask..they say the job is taken... AT LEAST TAKE DOWN THE PAPER DAMMIT... Was so excited when i saw vacancy-part-timer.... I mean there's a few more shops that have vacancies...but i didnt went inside to ask... I didn't want to do the jobs that i dont like for example sell shoes...shirts... I went to the Digital Centre to find...no job...:( Then went to those stalls like Hot&Roll, Sno, Moo Cow and many more... Dont't have... Its shocking to know that finding a part-time job can be so hard..... Then went to arcade to shoot a few hoops...and daytona for 1 round and went home...empty handed...

Next is today...Morning went to a RM2 shop to have breakfast...although its cheap...but its damn nice....vegetarian shop...xD...After that, went to IDk what place to see some Buddhist thing...They release the fishes into the river something like that... And listened to a few interesting stories... The sentence i remembered most is "once you meet difficulties, stay calm" and another is "There's no miracles in life" I am not that spiritual la...but i DO believe in miracles...thats what made my day everytime... Later on head back home and my family went to IOI mall to shop but i stayed at home... Around 2pm, they called and call me to go eat lunch by myself.... Thats the hardest part...i don't want to go far, and i want something cheap.. Well the pan mee shop didnt open to went to this Taiwan restaurant.... Ordered Chicken chop rice and Lemon Juice...damn nice...RM12.50..WTH...expensive....==...simply eat can go up to RM12.50...not nice...Then at night went to pyramid again because my mom wanted to Universal Traveler to buy some shirt or duno jacket and stuffs... She is going to Guangzhou to accompany her sister to do surgery there i think? Well at least 2 weeks she go there... Then I was like walking around the whole pyramid to find for a nais place with strong Wi-Fi...But failed...so headed to arcade and wanted to shoot some hoops...But stopped at the Midnight arcade machine to watch one malay and one chinese kid playing the game... I was in their shoes once..but now i don't really fancy arcades...go once in a while is ok...Because last time i m really addicted to arcades.... Well the malay children won...lol..Syok sendiri...then he versus ghost mode...==...he is so into the game until he pointed middle finger at the screen.... Which is LOL! Then walked around the arcade...lazy to play and game...so stopped again at this dancing machine to watch the guy dance...NOT bad... Few minutes later my dad called me to meet up....we were going home... Then he told me its time to go buy new clothes for chinese new year... NOOO....buying new clothes is like my worst nightmare....><... I hate buying new clothes...so i told him..."If i got time i will buy...currently lazy to buy now..." And yeah went home and thats the end of my day...

Owh well...jobless asshole down the street...cannot work....might as well study...Girls don't like guys that are less clever than them...:P

Peace Out!

Sad case

Hmm...watched you're the apple of my eye yesterday... And i have to admit that the movie was awesome...Lol..i so late only start watching... Well the movie is really sad la...then ending....i heard people said that its unexpected.... But too bad while i was watching the movie...i skipped the ending...which starts from the wedding... I just closed the window and do my stuff... I guess i just don't have the courage to watch the ending?

My friends say that the main character's life is almost like me... i said...naaahh... he has courage and I don't have courage... Well i guess because its a movie...the story line is scripted and mostly is not the same as real life i guess? Well, movies and videos really inspires me... Well if my friends think that the story line is like my life, then i SHOULDN'T let the ending come true.... Hey come on...although the story line is almost same as my life...doesn't mean i will end up like him... I WON'T let that happen! Watching the person you love marrying another guy? And congratulate them but actually you're not sincere? That is like worst than dying... No man..that aint nice... Never let the person you love go with other person... Once you have the chance just tell her....or worst comes to worst accept the rejection and move on....( i know its hard...but this is life... :'( )

Easy Peasy

Hmm...yesterday was interesting.... i was having fun for the whole day... Nothing went bad...well.. got la..but i dun think that as too bad...(idk what i talking)

Well...start off by going to the temple in bangi... My mom force me to go...so i drive go lu...although this is damn lame..but its the first time i drive 120km/h.... dont care la...myvi drive so fast for wat...not same at all..after praying n all those...went to the restaurant in the temple... Ordered Wantan mee...and it was like the best wantan mee i've ever tasted.... :)...Then went home after lunch... OTW, i hear like my car got abit problem...then stop by the side to check...lol...idk what fell off and keep hitting the tayar... Then thats why my wife masuk hospital for fixing and service...

Went to my old house there de shop to fix my car... I was thinking..since so long din come back ad...so i just talk a short walk around the place... Hmm....not any obvious changes here and there...i still see familiar faces and familiar cars... The childhood i had growing up in this neighbor hood...hmm...it also smells like home..:)... I thought of the future...hey i might move back to my old house here though..when i had a steady job or something...then have 2 dogs... I mean that neighborhood has all the things i need... Have petrol...restaurant...7-11...car shop...clinic...barber...pharmacy... I dunid to go anywhere though...its so convenient...IDK la...for some people...they can dai living in that environment...I mean its simple though...although i gotta admit that place is abit dangerous la...but now got guards already..should not be that dangerous gua...

Not like the house i m living now...On top of the hill...yeah i admit the scenery is nice...can see sunway from my house...But the people here not same lo...Not all la..but i feel like kinda... I duno how to express this feeling ... Around my old house when i take a walk, the best car i see is err...benz? or bmw? And majority of the cars is proton? perodua? not alot of fancy cars... Like my house here...zzz..easily u can find a sports car...porche? ferrari? lancer? r35? Hummer? got 1 guy ownes 3 hummer...zzz.. Not that i envy or what, but they work hard, so they deserve it... and myvi is like normal car here...lol..haven get to see 1 car is not as good as myvi... Aiya...now the car my parents buy de...what for compare...Lol..(talking to myself) My friend from highschool keep compare my car and his...and i keep say...all now buy car is parents money wad...care so much for what...nxt time we ownself earn money buy car then only got meaning ma...now got car can already de la... Rait? :) IDK...i think simple life suits me more sia.... ^^

At night, me n my friends celebrate a friend's birthday...but b4 that went basketball first.... lol..boys...hahah...Had fun though...gotta talk with my old friends...and knew my friend's sister...lool.... But mostly our gathering is chatting la...not spending time eat or watch football... Then its time for da cake...whee...damn excited...coz first time make...dun know what will ppl think that cake taste like... All see the cake...then say its buy de...lol...coz the design really nice...by my friend's mom...fruit cake that i ate the past few days.... My friend cut the cake and divide to all...giv me first..then i go giv her younger sister...lol....all BOO me....haha...After all eat the cake..all also say nice...wheee...and really dun believe that is we make de...haha... U gotta see the face of the birthday boy man...haha...damn epic...his face was like stunned...haha...well at least i think like that.... I mean i dun think got ppl ever bake him a cake for his birthday b4 la...maybe got..but so far i dun think so...this is the first time...and the first time for me to bake a cake for a GUY! *gayism... ^^ Well...thats the most i can do for a best friend rait? Coz b4 this all wan buy him another thing...so i was like...his family quiet rich de also...what for he needs those things...lets get him something he cannot buy...and poof...a cake which contains alot of "sweat"and heart.... You got money also cannot buy a...haha

Da cake...nice?

Sien

Sien....really damn sien...no life these days...finished the game my friend gave me... luckily manage to download nba 2k12...awesome game.... Now my blog topic ideas come from my daily driving...me driving alone..then can think of any blog topics..if not my blog will be so dead...

This world seriously change alot already....hmm...and its getting more complicated and complicated.... I just wished for a simple life....but i think that my wish wun come true...coz humans are unpredictable...they can do things that we can't imagine... Now do everything also need to becareful... I dont know la...i cant even reconize my real friends now...the ones that grew up with me...they can change in a split second... some aren't true friends anymore...sien lo....they had become friends-for-benefit... my primary school friends...some really change until i dun dare to imagine...looks like the the world is changing very fast and i m slacking behind... I m just too naive and simple minded...the things that i think of is for short-term...not long term....

Real friends are hard to get...and i know who la... i know la...some people...don't want to be themselves...when they want to know a new friend... They be the person that other people want them to be...not being theirselves....i see also sien...how can a human being be fake like this.... seriously.... You want people to be real to you...you must be real to themselves first ma... I see you want attention...Sien man... you got 1 true friend that is loyal to you...at least she is true...but you dump her and go with new friends.... I see also sien! got someone too good for you already..you dont want..you want "something new" zzzz.... duno how to appriciate...when he/she leaves you...then only u cry like a .....IDK...

For some people....they hide their flaws...to be with their friends.... What for o? you are sked that they will hate you for your flaws? Then their are not your friends already lar... everybody has flaws ok...zzz...if u dun hav 1..you're not even human... For me...i take the chance to show all my flaws...sometimes i even overshow...show those flaws that dun hav in me....i want to see who are my true friends.... if you can take the "worst me" then you're my real friend...coz actually i m not that worst la...just i add on my flaws to see anybody out there that is real to me...:)

i know already 1...i write this blog..sure got people will beh song... What can i say...true friends tell the TRUTH...and truth are not meant to be music to your ears....zzz

I write this blog base on my understanding....if we are not on the same page...then thats not my problem..:)

peace out!

sick

shit man...sick...got the whole package...flu...fever..sore throat... I m just dayum lucky... Well thats what you get for walking under the rain for 2 days.... Actually its quite nice though...xD...walking in the rain...makes you think of stuffs....lol..just joking...actually its kinda romantic walking alone... but its better if you have a friend walking with you la... a friend that can chat any kind of stuffs....and won't backstab you back.... which is really shitty

Finally relieved....because now i know the requirements for degree in IT.....i asked information center...they said at least need to pass.... Getting in is no problem...coping with the sylabus is a problem only....if i can do it then its no problem....:)....relieved that i dunid to retake....

So long didnt blog already lo....cant find a good topic to blog....not emo nowdays...how to blog...haha...which is good....i emo i waste time...might as well go play game...

I know myself very much de....these days i game alot...hard to control myself....but how also must control abit...i keep saying to myself... But it doesn't help...i got resit this friday...n i haven study...sien....need to study tomorrow onwards....#hopemywishcomestrue...

IDK....suddenly i have a feeling of how lucky i am... Being blessed with so many things and i still want to FML? Tak Payah la...and other individuals outside also...must learn how to appreciate what God gave you... Have you ever imagine if God didnt give u a set of eyes? God gives you face, nice body.....but takes away your eyesight... Would you exchange with them? What if you don't have a chance? Do you know how lucky is it to have a set of eyes? I m not in the position to speak la..since i have vision.... But i know its scary to lose your eyes... Imagine you can't see the ones you love, your friends, etc... Same goes to voice... As you know, i talk damn alot...and if suddenly God takes away my voice...i don't know how m i gonna accept that fact for the rest of my lives... Cant speak means you cant express your feelings and what you opinions... I mean you can, but its alot harder to use sign language all those...

Imagine that you want to say something...you're so used to talking...and when suddenly you can't talk...how u gonna express your feelings? Its very suffering....you can't say the three letter words to the one you love... But actually that doesnt really matter rite? :)

LOL...seriously duno what thing to post...not emo anymore...LOL!

+_+

Had 2 awesome days of my life...

Yesterday my extended family gave me a surprise party...at that time i really don't know how to react.... This is the first time i got a surprise from my friend.... Usually i so-called celebrate with my family? Which is so damn boring n pointless i guess? Didn't believe that my extended family would stay back to celebrate with me...their class ends at 3.15 i guess? and they waited until my class end... Words cant describe my feeling... Brenda tweeted that i got no reaction....haha...its because i tak tau how to react...takkan want me cry right? :P One friend even went to pyramid today just to buy me a slice of cake...which i really didnt expect.... The cakes that i eat this year has more meaning and are the best cake that i've ever tasted

After that went home n stone... After dinner...randomly my mom asked why today so late go home.... I said celebrate birthday la...she asked why your friends so many birthday 1....HELLO...there's no rule saying that my friends cant have many birthdays....zzz... Then i told her its my birthday celebration...zzz...And she said that i keep go out la this la that la... And said i cannot go out already....i was like wtf...so now you're reducing the times i spent with my friends? This freaking timetable is already crappy enough...and now i cant go on outings? Eff.... You can do anything to me...but don't do things that relate to my friends...you involve them...you die... After that was damn pissed...so wanted to use the laptop.... My mom was holding it since she just finished using and was watching TV... I went and take the laptop...she dun wan give...she pull back... So i just pull la from her....don't need give face to her 1.... She dominate too much already.... So i just pulled...and walk up straight to my room.... In your face ! Later chat with eric about it...he said that i still can put smiley face even when i m pissed...:)

I m glad that I always have my awesome friends with me.... When i m down...they will always be there for me.... ( ok seriously i m bad in acting....saw something on facebook and now i no mood to blog already)

I think i should learn william though....He have a headphone over his head everytime....and listens to emo songs when he is emo....At least for that few minutes he is in his own world... For me...only rap or rnb music can take her off my mind for a while... Everytime thought of her...my mood really can change 360 degree... Until i put on my headphone only she will be off my mind.... My friends call me to do some other things to get her off my mind... If i can i early already do la.... :) But i know that this method only can be used temporary....it can be used forever...i still need to find a solution to get my ass out of this shit....

cant wait for my hair to grow long...gonna do something new to my head...gonna make a big difference in my life

I m bad at lying...its too hard to tell a lie that you're ok when you're not....:)

BTW..thanks to all who wished me...:)

Peace out

zzzz life

Made a video about the times we had as an extended family...Well...the xpiry date is gonna be in another 10 more weeks or less? Then we will all be separated.... Making the video....even the computer so beh song me...so many technical problems...Until i have to find other alternative ways to finish the video...At this kind of time...Windows...Seriously? Do you hate me so much... Is the video nice? Because of this video making...duno i emo for how many days already... Finding pics is easier than putting all the pictures together... Blindly looking at the fun times we had...knowing its gonna end soon...and i can't do anything about it..sucks! For the third semester...i scared later while i m doing the vid i will cut myself n die in front of the computer...LOL

This is the vid i made...enjoy

The day before i take the timetable...seriously prayed to god that i get a nice nice timetable...but when i got the timetable...WTH man...zzzz....Thanks god..thanks.....Start the third sem for a few days and i feel that it sucks already... How m i gonna continue for the whole semester? Thanks to my computer science subject...now seriously is 100% separated from my friends... I think...well nvm ba...its already so dead...i cant change anything... Haiz...the first class in malaysian studies...already have an asshole lecturer...zzz...first day he already made me bom him in front of so many ppl... He suggested that our class go on lawatan sambil belajar...thats what made me f-ing pissed...I told him that whats the fucking point of going if all of us will be in our own gangs....We wont socialize at all...ZZZ.....Ever since I took my timetable...like everything goes so not according to plan... Everything is like going against me...WTH man..gime a break! In class is like freaking #foreveralone man... Now everyday in class...sit alone...you guys know how damn boring is it? Other people who say their class sucks! Think again man! WHOSE CLASS LAGI SUCK! I told my friend...at least you guys are in the same class together leh... He/She dun appriciate it! You guys come try being alone in 1 class lo....see whats the feeling...talk so much... Damn freaking sien...

Yesterday found out that i failed my maths...the feeling of fear is not there... Like in the first semester...i fail 1 subject...like very scared and nervous...but this semester...that feeling is gone already.... I dun feel scared no more... My feeling is like fail then fail lo...retake la.... I miss the feeling back in sem 1...at least i have a direction and know the fear of failing... This sem...haiz...not scared of failing already...There's no more common sense in me anymore...Can somebody know some sense out of me? I really like bo rasa already... Owh well...my timetable already suck this bad...what could be worst right? Add 1 more subject only ma... I think if i fail other subjects...i wun show any reaction already...Whats that to show? My mood already is like that...sien...

Now i understand why I m so afraid that i close my eyes today...and wont be able to open them up the next day...because i have my friends all...and the person i cherish...I wonder...if i didnt have them...i might lost interest in living... Maybe thats what that keeps me alive for so long...HMM...problems?

Imma failure...ZZZ

Peace out

ZZZ

Yesterday was the last day of our exam....finally relieved....had a great time with my friends... We watch some movie that i usually don't watch in cinema...well...this is the first time....No mood blog now man...but i've already started....

Sometimes, its better not to know so many things.... The

truth...that we all don't want to know...its always damn painful... Suddenly only today i knew something that can change me straight away... After knowing that issu

e...really no mood to do anything....but still...what i do is to "act" happy? Laughing is the best medicine right? Today all so happy....so didnt put on my emo mask today.... I've been keeping alot of masks in my pocket...and from time to time...i will change these masks... My mood depends on my mask... I think everybody out there has their own masks.... Just i think my collection of masks is more than others? What are masks for? They are for hiding all my flaws i can say? With these masks....people can't really know what am i thinking of... Which is good...because i can be unpredictable... What for being predictable? Its so boring... But if i can find someone that really understands me more than myself...I would thank god for th

at... One that can see through my masks and know who am I.... But i guess this day won't come? Previously saw the video about the end of the world... Which made me appreciate my friends more....

Its the end of semester 2....gonna start my video making... well..after this video...i only have the chance to make 1 more video...and thats it...We all go our separate ways... Maybe we won't even see each other anymore...but we can still communicate through facebook though... Just set a timing and we all can chat about our stuffs in our new envir

onment.... I wished i had more time.... In a few more months...i can't do anything for them anymore... Chit-chat....the most also few more months...and thats it... Lunch? dun think we will have lunch together when we are in degree programs... Had been

thinking of organizing a prom...but then....if me n my friends organize prom...we will be the organizer...and will be busy with our stuffs on the event day... We won't have time to sit down on the same table and chat,take pictures, laugh...you name it.... Thats the thing that is keeping me from organizing prom... It may be the last time we sit together and have dinner on the same table... I want to cherish all our memories...the memories we had....its what kept me from doing stupid things... My house=NOTHING... can i share problems with them? NO...can i chat with them? NO...do they have the same interest as me? NO...i guess i am like the teenager in I Not Stupid... He has 1 saying...which is something like...My house...from the outside...looks like it has everything....but the fact is....inside the house...is empty....Something like that...cant remember the details... To me...friends are like treasure to me...but sometimes i will do stupid things that offended them.... I won't feel comfortable after doing that... Althou

gh we dont have many pictures taken this sem...which is insufficient for the video making...but i will crack my brain and work something out...hope it surprises my friends...

Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods.

Ok this part gets a bit idiotic....

How does lying on the hospital bed feels like? How does it feel when your friends visit you when you are lying on the hospital bed? Dammit man...these days really got that kind of feeling and thinking that i WANT to bang car... When emotionally unstable....i see one car in front...i wil think of banging the car straight away...and cause an accident to mys

elf... Special thanks to my dad man..seriously....zzzz....don't know what the fuck he wants...but its damn freaking shit! And my mom also...whats wrong with playing game huh? Got a freaking problem? You give me something to do at home la...if you don't want me play game.... What you guys normally do at home? socialize with family members right? You know how's my life? everyday reach home from college...go upstairs....sleep/play computer.... Dinner come down and eat early...coz i will be eating alone... Then finish eating i will go back to my room and chat with friends or something.... What a life i m having....its so freaking lifeless...i would tell myself many times to get a freaking life.... But what can i do? See parents....nothing to say.... And if got something to say...they sure relate the things that i said and shoot back to me... WTF.... Like today...i said that next semester com science class...lecturer will borrow us a tablet or ipad for the whole sem...to do programming... Then u know what my father thought of? He suddenly said..... I see u everytime use 2 phones a? Those big boss earning billion

s of dollars also din use 2 phones... I as a student using 2 phones? EH HELLO! USING 2 PHONES IS TO SAVE THE FREAKING COST LA! one to maxis one to digi...got wrong? The rate now all damn freaking high.... I use digi call maxis...you know how freaking xpensive? 36 sen per minute! From maxis to digi..33 sen per minute! WTF!!! Those freaking bosses earn damn freaking alot of money... so their phone bills are no feeling for them la! How much they use...they pay la! Eventhough its few hundred bucks...!!! CELAKA! I NEXT TIME GO EAT OR WHAT OUTING.... I WON'T SAY A WORD! JIBAI! SAY THING THEN KENA SHOOT BACK! I WON'T SAY ANYTHING NOW! HAPPY? Unless i need to inform u guys something only i talk...IF NOT I WON'T TALK! (Blog is the only place i can xpress my anger and hatred..hope you guys understand...its a way of talking to myself) *hint...have children when you and your partner's age is young...the older you have ur babies... When they grow u

p...there will be a miscommunication there...you won't be able to communicate with your children... Because the frequency is not the same......... Parents...if you cant say anything nice? dont say anything at all? Get it? Zzzzz

Well this post is a combination of 2 days...i didnt want to publish coz i got a feeling something idiotic might happen today....

And..i was freaking right... Woke up early in the morning and check my fb and twitter... Parents saw only i m awake...called me to go for breakfast...zzz... Obviously i don't wana go...go for what...eat? just dapao back for me lah...DUH... Or if duwan then i eat

myself la...go out with you guys....zzz... So go lo...buy the normal praying stuffs first...my mom call me to hold...i just turn away and say...you ownself duno how to hold a...ownself got 1 bag ad..zzz... And teaching us so many about recycling...dun use plastic bags... My mom buy shirt also wan put plastic bags...zzz...she already has the recycle bag and tom dick and harry has....why dun use? HUH? Know how to teach...but dun apply to yourself...You think we all will follow? zzzz.... After that went for breakfast at this restaurant...eat only lo....parents chat and i eat alone...minding my own business....Owh well...then reached home....i continue my computer...don't care what is happening downstairs...Owh ya...forgotten the biggest issue for da day... Special thanks to my parents...zzz.. During the breakfast...they were talking about buying a new car...i dun care la...duno is innova or camry....zzz... So they 2 talking about planning their financials...AND...suddenly my mom said..."cannot leh...also duno j

ian wei can go to university or not...later need spend money...." I was like wtf...which freaking parents said that in front of their children....ZZZ...what is duno whether i can go university or not... FUCK....go use ur fucking money....dun use it on my.... I rather work than use your money....dignity man! Owh ya...if u guys are trying to make me think? WELL....#FAIL! Idiotz.... Ownself dun let me work....still worry about your money? zzzz....you let me work la! i wun use your money from that day on...LAMER....

Feel like making scars on my arms with the kitchen knife... Just randomly had this vision that i will... If 1 day i get out of control or go mad or some shit...my friends should not be around me....i sked i do something stupid... Okay...my parents made me think of accidents....scars...cuts...what more can their actions make me think of doing? Impress me life....

If you hate your parents, don't show them up by getting wasted and wrapping your car around a tree. If you really want to rebel against your parents: outearn them, outlive them, and know more than they do. (FUCK YEAH)

Peace out!


#likeaboss

Just for fun

Seriously man....why many of my friends keep calling me to go for her ....NOW... I not ready yet...sorry my friends have to listen to that...haha...but i really not ready yet.... When i'm ready i will go...k?

Today...as usual..normal day...it sucks...woke up at 12...lol...ate breakfast...then stone there...twitter for few minutes..then decided to go play ball...so went at 12.30? LOL..it was damn freaking hot...took off my shirt...and there's nobody in the court except me..every car that passes by keep staring at me...as if i m an idiot playing under the sun...

Later around 45 minutes of playing..drove home and was finding for food... There was no food...so have to go to the nearest food court to eat...alone..== But then something interesting happened... After i reach the food court...get off my car...saw a cute puppy...lost n i think its hungry...coz its so damn skinny... Pet the puppy for awhile and went for lunch... While waiting for my food...suddenly thought of the puppy... Its so damn cute...so i decided to buy the puppy food after i finish mine... Bought a one ringgit hot dog bread for the puppy...and on the way back to my car... Was thinking...what if the puppy isn't there anymore...then i have to eat the bread myself...* prays along the way back to my car...

Looked around my car to see if the puppy is still there...Didnt look long, so just went in the car... When i started the engine...something made me make another spin to find the dog... And well i did...I FOUND THE PUPPY! It was few cars away from mine....so found a nice parking spot and called the puppy near my car... Opened the door, took the bread and gave it to the puppy... The puppy bit the bread and ran off.... :)

Well....was happy and sad the same time.... First...i didnt xpect the puppy to wait for me there...and i get to gave him the bread... The thing is...the puppy...well...really didnt appreciate what i did...it just bit the bread and ran away...which leaves me hanging there...well...can't expect alot from a puppy right... *Hidden meaning....don't interpret wrongly...your thinking doesnt mean will be same as mine... :0

Workshop>SS15>Home

Today was kinda interesting for me.... Haha...i enjoyed the whole day...and its so epic... i shall not forget this day until the day i die....i meant the meaningful part...xD

OK..lets start..

Planned to meet jim in college at 8...so we can go to this seminar...or i think workshop...coz i see google map...they say it will only take around 20 minutes? So i thought...relax lo...don't need so rush... So ...in the end i woke up at 8.30....If Jim didnt call me....i will surely sleep until 9 or so on....So when he hung up...i jumped out of bed and wash up damn fast...didnt have time to bath though....so didnt bath.... without my breakfast...i drove to college....and its damn scary...try not to do it again...So reach college and we started our journey....

It all started smoothly...following the map that i printed yesterday night.... Full of confidence...until we took the first turn...where it all changed the journey....We don't know where were we back then....saw a police officer and asked for directions....and all the directions he gave...i didnt understand anything...i just keep nodding... and so I followed his instructions and don't know where we end up...so Jim on his gps and we followed the gps...Go go go..and along the way....we don't know called the academy how many times already to ask for directions...But me as usual...don't memorize the road de...just followed blindly...OK to keep this post short...if not i will be like telling a freaking long story... but i can say this... on the way... we asked about 5 or 6 person or more than that on how to reach our destination.... Well...some were helpful...and some lead us to the wrong direction.... ><

So...we reached the destination.... OWH wait...before that...we entered The Star newspaper's building...we thought that was the destination...and when we went in....we saw The Star...== What to do...took the token already....and went to pay straight away....RM 3 for a freaking 1 minute? LOL #Fail..... Then we only went to the real building...Sorry didnt take many pics of the journey...because i was busy driving and looking for directions and Jim was helping with the gps and calls and also sleeping was his job....xD Okay...the building don't look like a building though....in fact...it looked like apartments....==... their lift sucks....and its damn scary.... So we manage to find the academy...and went in for the talk....we were 2 hours late....:(.... the journey itself should be 20 minutes....but we took 2 hours to reach.... #Fail.... Inside the small room...we were with other i think around 20 more programmers? Judging from their looks...they look like professionals.... Ok well i think all of them at least had finished their degree? LOL ....me and Jim were the weird ones....From Sunway University College...and others are from like government firms or private sector... ok freaky.. And during the workshop...i was like staring blindly at the guy and at least Jim understand abit....i was totally blur there....#Fail But managed to learn a thing or two there...can't wait for the next workshop...

Ok then after the workshop....we followed Jim's gps and almost went the wrong way! #Fail.... Cause we are not that sure on how to use that gps...so we put...Subang Jaya...and when i reached the bridge....the road says turn left to bandar sunway....and the gps says go straight....i was like...shit man...nvm follow instincts...and i was right! So went to college and pick Ivy up to go SS15.... To be honest....i don't really know how to go SS15....haha...So Ivy lead the way by giving directions....and almost went wrong...haha...at the roundabout...we should turn 3'o clock...before that Ivy said go 12'o clock...and when waiting for our turn....i see the sign...straight is to ss14..lol....then i ask her again....then only she recalled....haha...funny...almsot went the wrong way.... So reach ss15 already....then go find parking and go see Jim perform YOYO!...

I was like craving for food because i haven't eat breakfast and lunch....It was already 2 something...I m so hungry i can eat anything...:) then went to the shop called "beans" then sat down and eat....Then chat along the way Ivy Stef Pei Ling and me.... can't stop laughing...coz it was so damn lame and funny at the same time..... Well nothing to say here.... Jim got second for his YOYO competition....CONGRATS!!

The epic part was when i was fetching stef home...and she was giving directions.... And my god.... we all almost died 2 times at least... imagine somebody is saying....keep left...but using the hand and giving a turn left signal....==... i was like huh? then Ivy shouted at me....:( then i blame stef for that.... Next is when she said want turn right...and i didnt know it was that junction and missed the junction...owh well have to u-turn.... Then the details later i forgot already...but we almost died....luckily we didnt.... dropped by V's house for about 2 minutes? and left...haha....lifeless teenagers.... Then after that drop stef and went to sunway pyramid to drop Jim and Ivy.... and well now i am here...sitting in old town white coffee using their Wi-Fi and blogging...

Well i need to thank god for teaching me this valuable lesson today... i mean i learnt this lesson indirectly...and well we should look on the bright side of everything....and for me....what happened today when we were going to the academy... God doesn't show us a smooth, straight and easy road for us to reach our destination... but eventually He will guide us there... like what i went through today.... asked a few people on how to reach my destination... I have to admit that some lead me to the wrong place...but i m still grateful to them...because without the first person that i asked...he won't lead me to the second person... its a link actually...everything happens for a reason....and thanks to these few people....i reached my destination safely.... And next is instinct.... when we have a feeling that this choice is better than the other choice...we should follow our instinct...coz maybe its correct and the best choice for us...

Well i guess thats all for now? gotta study...finals coming...good luck to my friends also!

Peace out!

SHIT happens

OMFG....whats fucking wrong with me today.... Used 50 over minutes and only enter 70+ ball? wtf is wrong with me.... All this time i thought that training can let me go into my own world for a few hours...but today...it didn't seem that way.... Faggots man... first college shit happens now this? This is the first day that during my training i cant get that issue that happened in college out of my head.... Cant even freaking concentrate on training... My mind is going crazy on me... I thought that i can control my mind...but now i think i am wrong...

Now i understand...no matter how much effort we put in the things that we like to do....it wont show any results... its whether something you're born with or not...i freaking did more training that my other friends but i m still the one that sits on the bench...FML man...its so not fucking fair.... *middle finger in the air* i doubt that most of them do as much training as i do.... but still what i get? NOTHING!

I can't tell how i feel to a friend too much because they also will feel annoyed...the only thing i can do is to post it on my blog...IF ANY HATERS THAT FEEL MY BLOG SUCKS...CAN GO GET OUT OF MY BLOG BY PRESSING CTRL+W...

FUCK MAN I SERIOUSLY HAVING AN UNSTABLE EMOTION NOW...

Got freaking problem with my family members enough already la...what do you still wan to give me? Thank you god...I know you're trying to train me...but seriously...you give me problems and issues from the two most important things in my life? Friendship and Family? You want to bomb me with these two things? Family enough already la....keep compare what fuck....compare with other kids... For what? Thats their freaking kid.... During dinner...keep indirectly compare us to other kids....say their kids this good la that good...all about fucking results... I KNOW I KNOW...MY RESULTS NOT GOOD...AND IT SUCK.... SAY 1 TIME ENOUGH ALREADY LA.... YOU GUYS THINK THAT KEEP REPEATING THEM WILL MAKE ME MORE EAGER TO STUDY? I DON'T WANT TO SAY ONLY...NIASING...KEEP SAY PEOPLE'S KIDS THIS GOOD THAT GOOD... COMPARE WHAT FUCK? YOU GUYS WANT ME COMPARE YOU TO MY FRIEND'S PARENTS? YOU WANT ME TO SAY... YOU SEE...MY FRIENDS FATHER CAN EARN MORE MONEY...CAN BUY SO MANY THINGS FOR MY FRIEND...DRIVE BIG CAR... OWN ALOT OF THINGS... YOU GUYS WANT ME TO SAY THIS KIND OF FUCKING THING ONLY YOU GUYS WILL UNDERSTAND MY FEELING IZIT? GET A LIFE MAN... OWH...SO WHEN I WIN COMPETITION... DO YOU GO N BRAG TO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS? I WIN ALREADY...NOTHING...ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! why? because sports isn't the IN thing now? now all compare attitude... and the thing i hate most...STUDIES.... what? then i win competition in sports don't have acknowledgments? Parents are good in 1 thing...which is lower our semangat.... keep push us study....

I hope in the future....i won't be as my parents...keep compare own kids with other kids... And to my friends...if in the future...you also compare your own kids to other kids....see i FUCK 9 U GUYS ANOT.... Look....i am always the unlucky one.... my results suck... Other friends who are more luckier than me... don't get these kind of lifestyles... DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE AT THE BOTTOM? WHERE PEOPLE ONLY LOOK DOWN ON YOU... WELL ACTUALLY I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME... JUST FREAKING BORED WITH THEIR EYESIGHT....

AND YOU! come from a rich family huh? drive big car huh? very geng right? belittle those ones who are poorer than you right? YOU WAIT... in the future....i see which girl u chase...i compete with you....just for the sake of winning you... because i didn't win you before in my college life.... poor people has their own rights and lives too.... YOU think they want to be poor? if everybody has a choice...they all want to be rich la...ASSHOLE! dont appriciate these people...if wasn't for them... who throw our rubbish for us....who will sell vegetables in the market...who will sweep the streets of our country? GOT THINK OF THAT? YOU THINK YOU RICH DAI SAI A? STILL A FREAKING JERK! you wait you wait.... 10 years from now...i will make sure that your every second is miserable... you will be worst that the people who sweeps the floor..... you wait....the hatred i shall gather it all up.... and once i release...i see how u die... when your parents are not on earth anymore...i see how u survive....

my friend say u said this ''quote'' before "myvi 不是人驾的"

"myvi 不是人驾的" will always be in my head

You wait!

Peace out!

efg

Don't know why is everybody emo-ing these days about the ones they love... I face problems too...but emo is not the best solution though...I'm not saying that emo-ing is wrong...but for me...its just not right....^^ Why will people emo? because the ones that they like don't like them back? Or because the ones that they like did something hurtful to them? I don't know..but everyone has their reason... Why should we emo? when we can throw away those feelings like i always throw my phone in the cupboard.... Throw your feelings away for a while...and do what you suppose to do... its your choice whether to open the cupboard again and emo yourself... Your call....

Friends.. don't let your friends emo... try to make them happy.. comfort them or maybe even give them guidance on how to solve their problems... I mean for me...i faced too much problems in relationships... Tell you guys a lil secret... i...NEVER get a girl before without anyone's help... My first girlfriend was with the help of my cousin... but i didn't appreciate her well...therefore i lost her... So now i am in the different college with my cousin... now...i am on my own...and i screw everything up...hmm..not enough experience i suppose....:(


For those who emo... cheer up...because if you emo now...there is alot more problems for you to face in the future...for me i kinda face alot of difficulties already...kinda used to it... My problems are no different than anyone else though...just that i faced kinda alot failures...:(


Yesterday..while talking to my friend...i almost teared because i was talking about the one i like with my friend... yeah...although didnt show out...but yeah...just don't know why i almost teared...just my eyes got wattery...the tears didnt get to fall out yet...i suck em back in... this is not the time to be sad...i still have tons of things to do... I can do alot of things for a girl that i like...maybe even freak the girl out... I bet alot of guys out there will also be like me and do everything for the girl they like.... Put her in priority and everytime we do things we will think of her first... But guys...we should't invest in some stocks that don't give us back any profit... So what guys will normally do is... stop what they are doing now after they found out that they are freaking out the girl or its wasting their time...








Few days ago...i was kinda chatting with this good friend of mine...talking about relationship stuffs and friendship stuff... The sentence i remembered the most is... The rich friends should mix with the rich friends...because they want to be richer... the normal range friends should mix with the normal range friends...and the poor ones with the poor ones... The normal ones cant go mix with the rich ones...because one thing...they can't keep up with the rich's lifestyle... sooner or later their friendship will end...and the friendship wont last long... Same as the poor ones mixing with the normal ranged ones... I dont mean to offend anybody...just an example.... For me...i think that in relationships...its also using the same "law".... For example... iphone can only be with iphone .... Symbian with Symbian...android and android... Iphone is like the higher grade...and symbian is the lowest grade...If symbian match up with Iphone...they wont be compatible and many problems will come out later.. because symbian's speed cant keep up with Iphone's IOS 5... And look at the price range... I think my examples are clear...Try to understand... :)



im tired of chasing something that never was really mine...

Peace Out

abc

Wow...huh...can't believe i can learn so many things from the college life i m living right now...

Some friends...True friends...when you do something like sing or dance...they will see where is your mistakes and try to correct you...Normal friends...will support you all the way...Fake friends...will say you dance/sing ar? Might as well don't perform....your singing is even more suckish than me...later you sing all people go deaf...

Now i know...that having more than what others do...does matter... People always say to be happy with what you have now and appreciate... Somehow i think thats bullshit...people are so materialistic nowdays... Because i never had the best...out of 10...my grade is just around 7 or 8...its not the best... I want to have the best in everything...coz i m damn fad-up of things nowdays.... Assholes....so many guys...and i mean big size guys...can have a damn hot gf...thats just not true....many people always say because the guy is damn rich.... Now u see what i mean?

I don't wish to have a hot girlfriend...because i know that she is not true and our relationships won't last long...i just wanted to have more when i meet the right girl so that i don't screw things up...

Went to this revolving restaurant around Bukit Bintang i guess....coz was random...after watching Mike He filming...then want celebrate my sis's birthday...so randomly parents said go to revolving restaurant....Went there and ordered their set dinner which only cost around 78 if i m not mistaken? First time took pictures when i eat...parents all stare at me...xP

Appetizer

Mushroom soup

Main Event...Mushroom+mashed potato+chicken

Desert...forgoten the left 1...right 1 is only coffee

I went thinking before....why i don't really like these kind of place before... I think perhaps i don't like them coz got alot of guys bring the partner there... And when i thought of it...hmm...my chances of bringing YOU to such place....neh....not that high percentage... If i really had a chance to bring YOU to these kind of place...the place won't be only in bukit bintang...it will be somewhere higher class...but i only can afford that after i work.... I won't use my parent's money...its like some Bai Ka Zai...take parents money go paktoh? no meaning... Its like your dad bought you a brand new ferrari...and you didnt pay a single ringgit to your dad...whats the point?

No matter how many times I get hurt because of you, I won't leave you. Because even if I have a hundred reasons to leave you, I'll look for that one reason to fight for you. I will always be there for you...just one call and I'll be there~~

Peace OUT

Hey guys! Its kinda boring in college though.... How bout yours? With all the assignments...i mean its not my place to say that its stress now.....because in the degree level, all the work will be doubled or maybe tripled...

Aiks...i can't say boring though...life is interesting...just maybe these days its less interesting...

I've been driving home as usual daily... and same with walking...the journey always enable me to think about things that happen around me... I realize...that I always do stupid things without thinking further. Actually, its not that i want to react or be like that... What i think is...since I've started it...so i might as well continue it...Its not that i want to be like that....

The second semester is ending soon though...Time files damn fast....very long we will all be separated from each other and we will head on our chosen routes.... It kinda reminds me....we don't appreciate friends during primary school....because we have 6 years to be with them in the same boring school...We often appreciate secondary school friendship....bcoz we know that we have 5 years together.... But when it comes to college friends...we only have lets say 1 year? So....forgive those who had hurt you.... And for some special case...show the girl/guy that u like them....1 year man...now only left with lets say...4 or 5 months? If you think that the girl/guy is Mrs/Mr right...go for it...what if it really works out? By then you 2 will have plenty of interesting stories to tell your kids... On how you 2 met and the journey you 2 been through together....

I m only good at talking...but when it comes to actions...haha....can't do it... First...me? not good at talking... I mean i can talk shit stuff and crap...but u wan me talk to girl? fail... Admire those other guys who can handle these kind of stuffs steadily.... Sien lo...for guys nowdays...you don't know talk=lose already...Well too bad for me then...

Is the word "love" important?
I don't know but for me, you are more important.
Do you know why?
Because how can I say "I love you" if you're not here.

P.S: I love you

Peace out!

!@#$%^&*()_+

Hey whats up guys! Long time no see! Was in the mood to blog...but wasn't in the mood to post it our... Something is holding me for not posting... Lazy to talk these days...its like I'm being emo...==

Well there's nothing much to post actually...life is life...just went on like usual... OWH wait...i drove to college for the first time alone! and guess what! my first ticket! LOL! ain't that superb? my first "parking ticket" by mpsj was rm80... And its my first time waking up at 6a.m so that i can leave my house at 6.30 and reach college around 7 to find a parking spot...

As i remembered i think that day was wednesday??? Yeah i think it was...well...Brenda's birthday...haha... Actually want to do a bbq...but change of plans because cannot find the suitable venue... After their class, shi ying,kl,brenda,keenyan,goki sit my car to pyramid...I can assure you...its damn scary when you have 5 lives in your hand...My right foot was like shaking...so drove slowly...Then reached pyramid, shi ying asked me want go fetch choo ling they all or not... So just go only...it was a hell of a jam though....then almost bang a bangla motor rider...>< sorry boss! didnt see you back then... Then it continues, i drove them to pyramid also and was late because brenda already entered Tony Romas...

I mean for this time, it was fun celebrating brenda's birthday...until i had to leave early because i have a basketball competition at 7.30.... Come to think of it...I should not have gone to the competition... If given a second chance, i rather stay with them until they all went back home.... The reason why i went is because I promised them that i will be there on time...But then...as usual...boring shit...i only receive 1 pass..and thats it...running up and down the court like nobody's business.... Aiks...Things went badly and not smoothly during the competition....Lost...so yeah...

I think thats all?

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born

Peace out!

Tuh-day

Today all of us had our culture exam... For me i think its quiet easy? i don't dare say anything... I dont want to be over-confident... coz the feeling of getting a bad results....omg i duwan to try again...not nais....

Today saw my college friends practicing their dance for Talent Time... That made me think...hey i think i should dance also...XD...for fun... i mean now its the time to have fun right? not after we are working... So i recruited a few members....haha... Do

nt know why...but i am damn hyped up nao... Haha....maybe because i m doing something new this time? Well i don't want to pressure my group members....we firstly shall do a research and study the moves first.... See whether we understand or not... If we don't, then too bad ba... we won't take part... On the other hand if we do understand...then its showtime! I mean its the first time i m perfoming on stage...so ofcoz got some kind of nervous in me....but nvm....in order to overcome this feeling...i must first make a good start...

After that everything will only go smoothly and i will be more confident...

Today just got my first car... Haha..love it... I mean for a starter...its cool... I appreciate this present given by my parents... Although its not some expensive car, but it will do for now... Expensive cars will come to me in the future...*fingers crossed....

At the shrine of friendship never say die, let the wine of friendship never run dry - Les Miserables

Peace out!

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Anybody got any suggestions how to live my life?

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You...knew it already right? You...know that I like you right? I...know that we won't be possible. I...know that i shouldn't have liked you in the first place. You...are a 9. I...I'm a 2... How is that possible? I still lack many things...there's still alot of things that i can't give you... Well...at least i can't provide those things that you like now...Maybe next time... But by then you will surely have somebody to provide you all those stuffs...

Tomorrow...

Tomorrow its the day yo! The day that I've been waiting for.. The day of the competition....Have been training for this day... To all my teammates, lets make this count! Try our best in the competition.....

OMG... i am so damn excited! Cant sleep! Damn hyped up right now!

Peace out!

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Today in culture class, Mr Keith's topic for the day is something to do with death... He is cool, trying to make the class interesting by cracking out random jokes that made everyone laugh because he thinks that people might freak out when talk about death.... Well...every since that day... i damn scared already...kena bomb suddenly...LOL...so i only find some of the jokes funny...and i kept quiet throughout the whole class... and poof...nothing happen..*wipes away sweat...


Is death a sensitive thing? I think its pretty much normal. People are afraid of death because they dont know what will happen after they die.... They are....scared of the unknown... I mean for me...whats the point of living for so long... If u had a chance...to live forever...would you? For me is a total NO! Whats the point of living so long where all your relatives, friends and family members had all went for 'vacation'? One will be lonely.. That guy can find new friends...but how bout your age? its increasing every year...and All your friends are all younger than you? imagine that .... For me its much more scary than death...

Lets say you're married...and you wife/husband went for 'vacation'... Its pointless to live on everyday... Well you have kids and grandchildren...they will keep you company...but the one that you spent your whole life with is not around anymore...whats the point of living....( i didnt mean that if your partner died you must die too ya.....xD) For me...i think i will feel kinda bored....although i have friends...children and grandchildren....that keeps me company once in a while...they have their own life...


Peace out for now?

I think it may need more that few weeks to officially get you out of my mind...coz those memories will be always fresh in my mind....

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Time flies really fast in the second semester, I don't get this kind of feeling in the first semester. Yeah i had fun, and assignments... But this semester, it feels so dead, if you know what I mean. So fast and we are in the 7th week, and for the whole 7 week, i don't know what I've done. Assignments? Maybe because my lecturer gave more time, so everything was slow and steady?

Slow and steady sucks. I mean they have their good part too, but for me it really sucked. Slow and steady for me, means not challenging. You can't live ur life slow and steady. Well maybe you can, but i cannot. Life must be challenging and fun and whatever you can think of. So this feeling really sucks, I feel so dead now.

Hokay back to topic....

I think, the last semester was fun... My friends and I had alot of fun and all of us treasure those memories. At least we did many activities together, thats how college life suppose to be. This semester, all seemed dead for me.... Starting of the semester with a bad feeling, yeah you know....Re-sit papers...Not nice! This semester i m gonna try my best not to fail....the "down" feeling just isint the good way to start a new semester....

Well.....these days really nothing to post....

Peace out!

I will be there if you need me...

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Today...went shopping at summit for my wife....A.K.A shoes...the pictures are below....

My dad gave me Rm375 yesterday night for me to buy shoes....but i went there...i see....aiks...better dont buy so expensive la...then i asked the guy...which shoe is below rm250?

So the guy just picked a few shoes..and i see...aiya...lazy to choose...just grab 1 and chow...It looks nice though....haha....

Behold....my wife...

My wife from the side...

Money is damn important....sorry i can't afford to buy a more 'beautiful' wife...but this shall do...shall not have high hopes on wives...oops...HAHA....I will buy another wife when i have the money....whee...

Peace out!

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Random post

Taking pictures is awesome...it reminds you of the happiest moments that you've been through...

You can show your friends or family in the future about the awesome time that you've been through...

A human smiling in a picture doesn't mean he/she is happy at that time....cause its a picture, and we need to be happy, because its a happy moments right?

What we see is a human or a bunch of friends smiling, but we don't know what happened 10 seconds before and after the photo was taken....

And that moments is what really matters, not the smiles that 'proves' that you are happy...

I am sort of a camera person last time...I snap alot of pictures from different angles...

And self-praise, those pictures look good...

I take pictures of the scenery which i like the most, but i rarely snap pictures of humans...:P

But now, i don't usually carry the camera around anymore.

Going out with my awesome friends...I tend to remember the moments that we were laughing...

Remember the scenery because i paid more attention to them...rather than snapping pictures everywhere....

Thats all i think?

Peace out!

Aiks...Parents

Is it me or parents nowdays are getting very weird...and when i say weird...its VERY weird...

I mean for me...my parents are...let me put it this way...open-minded? But i wish i could tell them....STOP PUTTING NEGATIVE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD....don't tell me u guys don't know psychology....instead of saying...study well so you can pursue ur degree...they said...if u dun study well...you're gonna come out and work..and thats the end of your studying days....

WTH man! Nowonder my pimple nowdays are increasing...Seriously...stop it...I already had enough stress from college....and i don't need extra stress.....

Because I am always on the computer...so my parents decided to hide the laptop away from me... =.=...Thats not gonna stop me...well...they underestimated me and hid the laptop in the kitchen...THATS SO LAME! well..here I am now...blogging? #fail.....

I realized why I am so talkative in college or outside of my house.... For normal people, you guys talk at home...with your parents... But for me its different case. I don't talk to my family members alot...I NEVER talk to my siblings...can you imagine that? And if i don't talk outside...I m seriously gonna be crazy for not talking.... Thats why FRIENDS are most important to me...

Peace out!

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Before this post, i had another post that i wanted to post out. But after staring at the post today....i decided to delete all the things in that post and write this post. That previous post is about her, mayb i m damn pissed..duno for what reason..but i m weird these days...

peace out?

seriously have no mood to do anything...

Anybody has suggestions? please i would like to hear them

something wrong?

hmm..something is wrong with me eversince i went to the orphanage what's the problem? At first....something or some feeling wants me to be there....its like I have to be there...but don't know for what reason....I just have to be there....

But after i reach the orphanage, i asked myself....what am I doing here....I don't really like kids though....but what made me come here....thats the question I wanted to answer since i went there....what feeling was that.....that I must be there..... Can somebody please tell me why...Its weird....and after I went there ....all i see is negative things....dont know for what reason i started calling those orphans inside.....they looks like animals...i mean its kinda true...for my opinion....you dont pay a freaking buck to the orphanage....do you know only who does that? ZOOs...what do you expect.....we are already gonna play with them...give them supplies...and still have to pay to go in.....fuck urself orphanage...if you say the money is for the orphanage...then that's bullshit...so in another way...if nobody visits the orphanage...means you got no income? then what will you do? Ass

I think there's something inside me....although i m cold blooded....but i do pity those uncle or old man beside the streets or on those bridge begging for money....and i always will donate money to them....dun care if they are in what condition....i just won't donate to those teenagers that begs money beside the road....go work ur ass out faggots..... I think its my prob lem....i mean i like animals....but dont know why i dont seem to like kids...for me....i think if something or somebody that has no relation to me i won't care about them.....but in another case...i dun care my brother and sisters also...dont even talk to them....but my parents...yeah i do love them.... As you can see....i pity those old man by the streets.....animals.....but the only thing that i dun like is kids......what the hell...weird huh? Yeah i thought so....

Peace out

Huh?? O.o

• • Do you know?
    You have a wonderful smile
    I would do anything for those smile of yours even it means running a thousand mile
    Your smile is not something that money can buy
    Although its hard to make you smile but I shall try
    To others...
    Its just another smile
    But to me...thats what keeps me company on a deserted isle
    Seeing you smile makes me stronger everyday
    Its so strong it can event prevent doomsday
    You smile its like my oxygen
    Its same as kids nowdays need vitagen
    But kids don't need vitagen to live
    I need your smile so that I can stay positive
    
    
    I don't think this above is a good poem...but its meant for somebody very important in my life...Without her my life is meaning less....Its her that adds color to my life and make my life so interesting...
    
    
    
    
    peace out!