SHIT happens

OMFG....whats fucking wrong with me today.... Used 50 over minutes and only enter 70+ ball? wtf is wrong with me.... All this time i thought that training can let me go into my own world for a few hours...but today...it didn't seem that way.... Faggots man... first college shit happens now this? This is the first day that during my training i cant get that issue that happened in college out of my head.... Cant even freaking concentrate on training... My mind is going crazy on me... I thought that i can control my mind...but now i think i am wrong...

Now i understand...no matter how much effort we put in the things that we like to do....it wont show any results... its whether something you're born with or not...i freaking did more training that my other friends but i m still the one that sits on the bench...FML man...its so not fucking fair.... *middle finger in the air* i doubt that most of them do as much training as i do.... but still what i get? NOTHING!

I can't tell how i feel to a friend too much because they also will feel annoyed...the only thing i can do is to post it on my blog...IF ANY HATERS THAT FEEL MY BLOG SUCKS...CAN GO GET OUT OF MY BLOG BY PRESSING CTRL+W...

FUCK MAN I SERIOUSLY HAVING AN UNSTABLE EMOTION NOW...

Got freaking problem with my family members enough already la...what do you still wan to give me? Thank you god...I know you're trying to train me...but seriously...you give me problems and issues from the two most important things in my life? Friendship and Family? You want to bomb me with these two things? Family enough already la....keep compare what fuck....compare with other kids... For what? Thats their freaking kid.... During dinner...keep indirectly compare us to other kids....say their kids this good la that good...all about fucking results... I KNOW I KNOW...MY RESULTS NOT GOOD...AND IT SUCK.... SAY 1 TIME ENOUGH ALREADY LA.... YOU GUYS THINK THAT KEEP REPEATING THEM WILL MAKE ME MORE EAGER TO STUDY? I DON'T WANT TO SAY ONLY...NIASING...KEEP SAY PEOPLE'S KIDS THIS GOOD THAT GOOD... COMPARE WHAT FUCK? YOU GUYS WANT ME COMPARE YOU TO MY FRIEND'S PARENTS? YOU WANT ME TO SAY... YOU SEE...MY FRIENDS FATHER CAN EARN MORE MONEY...CAN BUY SO MANY THINGS FOR MY FRIEND...DRIVE BIG CAR... OWN ALOT OF THINGS... YOU GUYS WANT ME TO SAY THIS KIND OF FUCKING THING ONLY YOU GUYS WILL UNDERSTAND MY FEELING IZIT? GET A LIFE MAN... OWH...SO WHEN I WIN COMPETITION... DO YOU GO N BRAG TO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS? I WIN ALREADY...NOTHING...ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! why? because sports isn't the IN thing now? now all compare attitude... and the thing i hate most...STUDIES.... what? then i win competition in sports don't have acknowledgments? Parents are good in 1 thing...which is lower our semangat.... keep push us study....

I hope in the future....i won't be as my parents...keep compare own kids with other kids... And to my friends...if in the future...you also compare your own kids to other kids....see i FUCK 9 U GUYS ANOT.... Look....i am always the unlucky one.... my results suck... Other friends who are more luckier than me... don't get these kind of lifestyles... DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE AT THE BOTTOM? WHERE PEOPLE ONLY LOOK DOWN ON YOU... WELL ACTUALLY I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME... JUST FREAKING BORED WITH THEIR EYESIGHT....

AND YOU! come from a rich family huh? drive big car huh? very geng right? belittle those ones who are poorer than you right? YOU WAIT... in the future....i see which girl u chase...i compete with you....just for the sake of winning you... because i didn't win you before in my college life.... poor people has their own rights and lives too.... YOU think they want to be poor? if everybody has a choice...they all want to be rich la...ASSHOLE! dont appriciate these people...if wasn't for them... who throw our rubbish for us....who will sell vegetables in the market...who will sweep the streets of our country? GOT THINK OF THAT? YOU THINK YOU RICH DAI SAI A? STILL A FREAKING JERK! you wait you wait.... 10 years from now...i will make sure that your every second is miserable... you will be worst that the people who sweeps the floor..... you wait....the hatred i shall gather it all up.... and once i release...i see how u die... when your parents are not on earth anymore...i see how u survive....

my friend say u said this ''quote'' before "myvi 不是人驾的"

"myvi 不是人驾的" will always be in my head

You wait!

Peace out!