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Once upon a time, there is this young boy in his class... He asked his teacher what is love. The teacher smiled and asked him to go to a paddy field. He did as told and his teacher told him to look for the biggest paddy seed he can find on the field. The bigger paddy he shows his teacher, the bigger his reward is. This boy went searching for the biggest paddy and when the time is up, he present the paddy seed that he found to his teacher. The teacher asked him: " So this is the biggest paddy that you can find"? The boy answered no. He said that he did found bigger paddy seeds, just that he thought he will find another bigger paddy seed so his reward will be better. The teacher said: " this is love. People tend to search for a better person, therefore they "throw away" the paddy seed and search for a "bigger" paddy seed. By the time people finds out he has lost a great person and knows that they could never get them back.  That's love."

We usually want to find a better person for ourselves in a relationship. Just that sometimes the best we've ever meet is just right in front of us and we missed our great chance.


If what stated above is real, guess we should really give our best when we are able to meet the "biggest paddy seed". But the problem that some people said is, the time is not right. If that is so, we should really wait longer until the time is right.  We are getting wiser and wiser day by day. If we get into a relationship fast, it might be risky. What your future is just standing right in front of you? Both of you are very compatible and loves each other very much. Just that the time is not right. Would you regret for the rest of your lives? For my case, i think i would regret. But i still think that the old saying which is "If the person is meant for you, sooner or later he/she will come back to you" is still a bullshit.... You want fate? OK lets say fate bring you two together... And you dont do no shit... In your dreams you two will end up together.... There is no effort...although fate did their job, there will still be no outcome... So i still think that old saying is bullshit...

There is this perfect "paddy seed" for me already.. I think I've found it... So imma grab hold to it until idk when... Just for the time to be right... :)


The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.
- Jennifer Aniston


Peace out!!

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Sup ...there are so many assignments kicking in one by one...guess have not so much time to blog...

Have been imagining. what my life would be 8/9 years from now... It is so unpredictable and every step i take would lead to different future.... As you know...my stupid brain always tend to think more than expected... There is at one point my brain imagine my future and link to the girls i like... You see...different partner sharing the same lives as you will really make a big difference...

In my dictionary...there are two different type of girls... One is nice..abit serious...kind...and materialistic... Another one is nice..playful...active...and not a spendthrift...but very social-able...

If my life ended up with girl type1... I picture myself... having my own business, earns alot of money and work very hard.... In this case...I MUST own a business...if not i really can't afford the best for her... Because if I have girl type 1 as my wife... i would want her to be happy... I just picture myself trying very hard to earn money and to support my family... For sure I wont let my wife work, therefore I am the only one working in the family and there is a heavy responsibility on my shoulder.... Yes yes i would be happy and stuff... But i do not think that it is what I really want... You see my brain thought this up when i was in the shower... and you know people tend to think alot when they are in the shower...so this fast vision came into my mind... If i were to have girl type1 as my wife... I gotta study hard from now onwards... That will lead to a more secure future for me and my future family... Which is so not me...

The next is girl type2... I would sacrifice everything i have to find a girl type 2... This kind of girl are really extinct from this world already... There are a few more out there...but most of them already have found their partner... So it is very hard to find... because I do not spend that much ... due to laziness... I am lazy to go shopping, eat nice food and etc...BTW i do not have taste buds... all nice foods are still foods to me.... I do not care so much on whether is the food nice or not... For me it is still food... Like my late grandmother once said... No matter what you eat... it will still be digested and it will become the shit we shit today... Don't tell me that if you eat some more expensive food you will have a different output from your ass... And that saying is stuck in my brain since then.... You see...my results are not that good... I failed 8 out of 10 subjects during my high school life... That is the "best" i archived for my whole life... And I am not a very good student... What am I? I am lazy, think I am the best but actually I am not... With my "good" attitude... I might not succeed in the future... I might end up working under people and never gonna be a boss... But the most i can be is maybe a boss of a small small computer shop... thats my vision... and spending rest of my life with girl type2... I would be satisfied enough...


K thats all I think..gotta go back to my assignments...

Not that I cared less...just that I stop showing....


Peace out!!

Hmm

These few days had too much time in my hands...so i blog about all the crap i think off.... Well because i really have nothing to do...

Recently i don't know what got into me..start talking to myself.... LOL and my best friends are animals/pets.... OOH...a stray dog...stare at em and start talking.... I just got a feeling that bond between animals.... Maybe i was an animal in my previous life..lol Since i m so into animals... Technically i talk to them alot though... Too many problems...dont want to tell human beings..since there's a saying that some of them dont care and some of them glad i have problems.... So.owh well..animals will do... Especially dogs...there are loyal listeners... Although they wont give me feedback.... but talking to them will somehow gave me idea on how to solve my problems... Magically.. i dont know why...but it worked most of the times... you guys should try it at home though...

Sometimes really sad see dogs tied up and not running freely... That sad feeling is there...but still.. i cannot do anything yet... I have nothing and i can do nothing to help them...feel so useless at times.... You see...now i have nothing... No big house enough for dogs to run around.... No money to afford them... Cant pay for their food... Although i might be working next week but still i dont think the money is enough for me to have a dog in my house... Sometimes i feel that those stray dogs are happier than those dogs that are tied up at home... I admit although stray dogs have to find their own food and sometimes need to fight over food with other dogs... but still happier than tied up dogs...although they dont have love from human beings.... Especially those active dogs....when i see them get tied up... Seriously if i were tht dog.... i prefer to die though...Its like i m a talkative person.... and i m not to speak a word for the rest of my live...i will seriously go crazy ....



A man who fears suffering is already suffering from what he fears.
Michel de Montaigne



Peace OUT!!