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Remember when we used to say that the world is unfair or life is unfair? Remember those times where we blame everything on other stuff such as luck or destiny when we faced some difficulties or when we meet failures?

We just need to know... Life is really quite fair for me...(when i m in my good sense...which means calm).... Sometimes we might have "something" less than other people.... Actually...we have that one "thing" that other people doesn't have.... We just need to find out what is that "thing" that we are blessed to have... We are all different... God created us.. some with special abilities....some without special talents... But just so you know...those who do not have special talents have something more spectacular than those who has spectacular talents... For example... For the people who are blind... They either have very good hearing or very good memory... This is what they have that other people who can see does not have....


In my life... I had always blame luck and God for everything that doesn't out good for me.... In University... i literally attend every tutorial and lectures....i consulted lecturers like many times....But i can tell you i still don't know anything that i've learnt... Unlike my friend....who skip classes and tutorials.... He knows everything...well...at least more than me... I've felt that this is really not fair... I went to all classes... i don't know anything....My friend who skips class...is able to study alone and actually understands it...


But when I'm alone and is thinking about all those stuffs... I realized that i have awesome lecturers and friends to help me out... I know lecturers very well and they are quite close to me... Even closer to me than i family...sometimes... I realized that lecturers and friends are always there to help me and some even offered themselves to help me with my studies... But the problem is... I'm damn freaking lazy fuck ass.... I always start off strong but ended up not finishing the work at the end.... So basically i screw everything up at the end of the story.... I'm really very thankful to those who wanted to help me.... But i scared i might end up disappointing them... Really hopeless in some kind of subjects.... do not want them to help me and then i still fail the subject.... Its really embarrassing and i'm scared they might be damn disappointing.... Really...nobody should put hope on me since i m kinda disappointing.....


A little more persistence, a little more effort, and what seemed hopeless failure may turn to glorious success.
Elbert Hubbard