ZZZ

Yesterday was the last day of our exam....finally relieved....had a great time with my friends... We watch some movie that i usually don't watch in cinema...well...this is the first time....No mood blog now man...but i've already started....

Sometimes, its better not to know so many things.... The

truth...that we all don't want to know...its always damn painful... Suddenly only today i knew something that can change me straight away... After knowing that issu

e...really no mood to do anything....but still...what i do is to "act" happy? Laughing is the best medicine right? Today all so happy....so didnt put on my emo mask today.... I've been keeping alot of masks in my pocket...and from time to time...i will change these masks... My mood depends on my mask... I think everybody out there has their own masks.... Just i think my collection of masks is more than others? What are masks for? They are for hiding all my flaws i can say? With these masks....people can't really know what am i thinking of... Which is good...because i can be unpredictable... What for being predictable? Its so boring... But if i can find someone that really understands me more than myself...I would thank god for th

at... One that can see through my masks and know who am I.... But i guess this day won't come? Previously saw the video about the end of the world... Which made me appreciate my friends more....

Its the end of semester 2....gonna start my video making... well..after this video...i only have the chance to make 1 more video...and thats it...We all go our separate ways... Maybe we won't even see each other anymore...but we can still communicate through facebook though... Just set a timing and we all can chat about our stuffs in our new envir

onment.... I wished i had more time.... In a few more months...i can't do anything for them anymore... Chit-chat....the most also few more months...and thats it... Lunch? dun think we will have lunch together when we are in degree programs... Had been

thinking of organizing a prom...but then....if me n my friends organize prom...we will be the organizer...and will be busy with our stuffs on the event day... We won't have time to sit down on the same table and chat,take pictures, laugh...you name it.... Thats the thing that is keeping me from organizing prom... It may be the last time we sit together and have dinner on the same table... I want to cherish all our memories...the memories we had....its what kept me from doing stupid things... My house=NOTHING... can i share problems with them? NO...can i chat with them? NO...do they have the same interest as me? NO...i guess i am like the teenager in I Not Stupid... He has 1 saying...which is something like...My house...from the outside...looks like it has everything....but the fact is....inside the house...is empty....Something like that...cant remember the details... To me...friends are like treasure to me...but sometimes i will do stupid things that offended them.... I won't feel comfortable after doing that... Althou

gh we dont have many pictures taken this sem...which is insufficient for the video making...but i will crack my brain and work something out...hope it surprises my friends...

Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods.

Ok this part gets a bit idiotic....

How does lying on the hospital bed feels like? How does it feel when your friends visit you when you are lying on the hospital bed? Dammit man...these days really got that kind of feeling and thinking that i WANT to bang car... When emotionally unstable....i see one car in front...i wil think of banging the car straight away...and cause an accident to mys

elf... Special thanks to my dad man..seriously....zzzz....don't know what the fuck he wants...but its damn freaking shit! And my mom also...whats wrong with playing game huh? Got a freaking problem? You give me something to do at home la...if you don't want me play game.... What you guys normally do at home? socialize with family members right? You know how's my life? everyday reach home from college...go upstairs....sleep/play computer.... Dinner come down and eat early...coz i will be eating alone... Then finish eating i will go back to my room and chat with friends or something.... What a life i m having....its so freaking lifeless...i would tell myself many times to get a freaking life.... But what can i do? See parents....nothing to say.... And if got something to say...they sure relate the things that i said and shoot back to me... WTF.... Like today...i said that next semester com science class...lecturer will borrow us a tablet or ipad for the whole sem...to do programming... Then u know what my father thought of? He suddenly said..... I see u everytime use 2 phones a? Those big boss earning billion

s of dollars also din use 2 phones... I as a student using 2 phones? EH HELLO! USING 2 PHONES IS TO SAVE THE FREAKING COST LA! one to maxis one to digi...got wrong? The rate now all damn freaking high.... I use digi call maxis...you know how freaking xpensive? 36 sen per minute! From maxis to digi..33 sen per minute! WTF!!! Those freaking bosses earn damn freaking alot of money... so their phone bills are no feeling for them la! How much they use...they pay la! Eventhough its few hundred bucks...!!! CELAKA! I NEXT TIME GO EAT OR WHAT OUTING.... I WON'T SAY A WORD! JIBAI! SAY THING THEN KENA SHOOT BACK! I WON'T SAY ANYTHING NOW! HAPPY? Unless i need to inform u guys something only i talk...IF NOT I WON'T TALK! (Blog is the only place i can xpress my anger and hatred..hope you guys understand...its a way of talking to myself) *hint...have children when you and your partner's age is young...the older you have ur babies... When they grow u

p...there will be a miscommunication there...you won't be able to communicate with your children... Because the frequency is not the same......... Parents...if you cant say anything nice? dont say anything at all? Get it? Zzzzz

Well this post is a combination of 2 days...i didnt want to publish coz i got a feeling something idiotic might happen today....

And..i was freaking right... Woke up early in the morning and check my fb and twitter... Parents saw only i m awake...called me to go for breakfast...zzz... Obviously i don't wana go...go for what...eat? just dapao back for me lah...DUH... Or if duwan then i eat

myself la...go out with you guys....zzz... So go lo...buy the normal praying stuffs first...my mom call me to hold...i just turn away and say...you ownself duno how to hold a...ownself got 1 bag ad..zzz... And teaching us so many about recycling...dun use plastic bags... My mom buy shirt also wan put plastic bags...zzz...she already has the recycle bag and tom dick and harry has....why dun use? HUH? Know how to teach...but dun apply to yourself...You think we all will follow? zzzz.... After that went for breakfast at this restaurant...eat only lo....parents chat and i eat alone...minding my own business....Owh well...then reached home....i continue my computer...don't care what is happening downstairs...Owh ya...forgotten the biggest issue for da day... Special thanks to my parents...zzz.. During the breakfast...they were talking about buying a new car...i dun care la...duno is innova or camry....zzz... So they 2 talking about planning their financials...AND...suddenly my mom said..."cannot leh...also duno j

ian wei can go to university or not...later need spend money...." I was like wtf...which freaking parents said that in front of their children....ZZZ...what is duno whether i can go university or not... FUCK....go use ur fucking money....dun use it on my.... I rather work than use your money....dignity man! Owh ya...if u guys are trying to make me think? WELL....#FAIL! Idiotz.... Ownself dun let me work....still worry about your money? zzzz....you let me work la! i wun use your money from that day on...LAMER....

Feel like making scars on my arms with the kitchen knife... Just randomly had this vision that i will... If 1 day i get out of control or go mad or some shit...my friends should not be around me....i sked i do something stupid... Okay...my parents made me think of accidents....scars...cuts...what more can their actions make me think of doing? Impress me life....

If you hate your parents, don't show them up by getting wasted and wrapping your car around a tree. If you really want to rebel against your parents: outearn them, outlive them, and know more than they do. (FUCK YEAH)

Peace out!


#likeaboss

Just for fun

Seriously man....why many of my friends keep calling me to go for her ....NOW... I not ready yet...sorry my friends have to listen to that...haha...but i really not ready yet.... When i'm ready i will go...k?

Today...as usual..normal day...it sucks...woke up at 12...lol...ate breakfast...then stone there...twitter for few minutes..then decided to go play ball...so went at 12.30? LOL..it was damn freaking hot...took off my shirt...and there's nobody in the court except me..every car that passes by keep staring at me...as if i m an idiot playing under the sun...

Later around 45 minutes of playing..drove home and was finding for food... There was no food...so have to go to the nearest food court to eat...alone..== But then something interesting happened... After i reach the food court...get off my car...saw a cute puppy...lost n i think its hungry...coz its so damn skinny... Pet the puppy for awhile and went for lunch... While waiting for my food...suddenly thought of the puppy... Its so damn cute...so i decided to buy the puppy food after i finish mine... Bought a one ringgit hot dog bread for the puppy...and on the way back to my car... Was thinking...what if the puppy isn't there anymore...then i have to eat the bread myself...* prays along the way back to my car...

Looked around my car to see if the puppy is still there...Didnt look long, so just went in the car... When i started the engine...something made me make another spin to find the dog... And well i did...I FOUND THE PUPPY! It was few cars away from mine....so found a nice parking spot and called the puppy near my car... Opened the door, took the bread and gave it to the puppy... The puppy bit the bread and ran off.... :)

Well....was happy and sad the same time.... First...i didnt xpect the puppy to wait for me there...and i get to gave him the bread... The thing is...the puppy...well...really didnt appreciate what i did...it just bit the bread and ran away...which leaves me hanging there...well...can't expect alot from a puppy right... *Hidden meaning....don't interpret wrongly...your thinking doesnt mean will be same as mine... :0

Workshop>SS15>Home

Today was kinda interesting for me.... Haha...i enjoyed the whole day...and its so epic... i shall not forget this day until the day i die....i meant the meaningful part...xD

OK..lets start..

Planned to meet jim in college at 8...so we can go to this seminar...or i think workshop...coz i see google map...they say it will only take around 20 minutes? So i thought...relax lo...don't need so rush... So ...in the end i woke up at 8.30....If Jim didnt call me....i will surely sleep until 9 or so on....So when he hung up...i jumped out of bed and wash up damn fast...didnt have time to bath though....so didnt bath.... without my breakfast...i drove to college....and its damn scary...try not to do it again...So reach college and we started our journey....

It all started smoothly...following the map that i printed yesterday night.... Full of confidence...until we took the first turn...where it all changed the journey....We don't know where were we back then....saw a police officer and asked for directions....and all the directions he gave...i didnt understand anything...i just keep nodding... and so I followed his instructions and don't know where we end up...so Jim on his gps and we followed the gps...Go go go..and along the way....we don't know called the academy how many times already to ask for directions...But me as usual...don't memorize the road de...just followed blindly...OK to keep this post short...if not i will be like telling a freaking long story... but i can say this... on the way... we asked about 5 or 6 person or more than that on how to reach our destination.... Well...some were helpful...and some lead us to the wrong direction.... ><

So...we reached the destination.... OWH wait...before that...we entered The Star newspaper's building...we thought that was the destination...and when we went in....we saw The Star...== What to do...took the token already....and went to pay straight away....RM 3 for a freaking 1 minute? LOL #Fail..... Then we only went to the real building...Sorry didnt take many pics of the journey...because i was busy driving and looking for directions and Jim was helping with the gps and calls and also sleeping was his job....xD Okay...the building don't look like a building though....in fact...it looked like apartments....==... their lift sucks....and its damn scary.... So we manage to find the academy...and went in for the talk....we were 2 hours late....:(.... the journey itself should be 20 minutes....but we took 2 hours to reach.... #Fail.... Inside the small room...we were with other i think around 20 more programmers? Judging from their looks...they look like professionals.... Ok well i think all of them at least had finished their degree? LOL ....me and Jim were the weird ones....From Sunway University College...and others are from like government firms or private sector... ok freaky.. And during the workshop...i was like staring blindly at the guy and at least Jim understand abit....i was totally blur there....#Fail But managed to learn a thing or two there...can't wait for the next workshop...

Ok then after the workshop....we followed Jim's gps and almost went the wrong way! #Fail.... Cause we are not that sure on how to use that gps...so we put...Subang Jaya...and when i reached the bridge....the road says turn left to bandar sunway....and the gps says go straight....i was like...shit man...nvm follow instincts...and i was right! So went to college and pick Ivy up to go SS15.... To be honest....i don't really know how to go SS15....haha...So Ivy lead the way by giving directions....and almost went wrong...haha...at the roundabout...we should turn 3'o clock...before that Ivy said go 12'o clock...and when waiting for our turn....i see the sign...straight is to ss14..lol....then i ask her again....then only she recalled....haha...funny...almsot went the wrong way.... So reach ss15 already....then go find parking and go see Jim perform YOYO!...

I was like craving for food because i haven't eat breakfast and lunch....It was already 2 something...I m so hungry i can eat anything...:) then went to the shop called "beans" then sat down and eat....Then chat along the way Ivy Stef Pei Ling and me.... can't stop laughing...coz it was so damn lame and funny at the same time..... Well nothing to say here.... Jim got second for his YOYO competition....CONGRATS!!

The epic part was when i was fetching stef home...and she was giving directions.... And my god.... we all almost died 2 times at least... imagine somebody is saying....keep left...but using the hand and giving a turn left signal....==... i was like huh? then Ivy shouted at me....:( then i blame stef for that.... Next is when she said want turn right...and i didnt know it was that junction and missed the junction...owh well have to u-turn.... Then the details later i forgot already...but we almost died....luckily we didnt.... dropped by V's house for about 2 minutes? and left...haha....lifeless teenagers.... Then after that drop stef and went to sunway pyramid to drop Jim and Ivy.... and well now i am here...sitting in old town white coffee using their Wi-Fi and blogging...

Well i need to thank god for teaching me this valuable lesson today... i mean i learnt this lesson indirectly...and well we should look on the bright side of everything....and for me....what happened today when we were going to the academy... God doesn't show us a smooth, straight and easy road for us to reach our destination... but eventually He will guide us there... like what i went through today.... asked a few people on how to reach my destination... I have to admit that some lead me to the wrong place...but i m still grateful to them...because without the first person that i asked...he won't lead me to the second person... its a link actually...everything happens for a reason....and thanks to these few people....i reached my destination safely.... And next is instinct.... when we have a feeling that this choice is better than the other choice...we should follow our instinct...coz maybe its correct and the best choice for us...

Well i guess thats all for now? gotta study...finals coming...good luck to my friends also!

Peace out!

SHIT happens

OMFG....whats fucking wrong with me today.... Used 50 over minutes and only enter 70+ ball? wtf is wrong with me.... All this time i thought that training can let me go into my own world for a few hours...but today...it didn't seem that way.... Faggots man... first college shit happens now this? This is the first day that during my training i cant get that issue that happened in college out of my head.... Cant even freaking concentrate on training... My mind is going crazy on me... I thought that i can control my mind...but now i think i am wrong...

Now i understand...no matter how much effort we put in the things that we like to do....it wont show any results... its whether something you're born with or not...i freaking did more training that my other friends but i m still the one that sits on the bench...FML man...its so not fucking fair.... *middle finger in the air* i doubt that most of them do as much training as i do.... but still what i get? NOTHING!

I can't tell how i feel to a friend too much because they also will feel annoyed...the only thing i can do is to post it on my blog...IF ANY HATERS THAT FEEL MY BLOG SUCKS...CAN GO GET OUT OF MY BLOG BY PRESSING CTRL+W...

FUCK MAN I SERIOUSLY HAVING AN UNSTABLE EMOTION NOW...

Got freaking problem with my family members enough already la...what do you still wan to give me? Thank you god...I know you're trying to train me...but seriously...you give me problems and issues from the two most important things in my life? Friendship and Family? You want to bomb me with these two things? Family enough already la....keep compare what fuck....compare with other kids... For what? Thats their freaking kid.... During dinner...keep indirectly compare us to other kids....say their kids this good la that good...all about fucking results... I KNOW I KNOW...MY RESULTS NOT GOOD...AND IT SUCK.... SAY 1 TIME ENOUGH ALREADY LA.... YOU GUYS THINK THAT KEEP REPEATING THEM WILL MAKE ME MORE EAGER TO STUDY? I DON'T WANT TO SAY ONLY...NIASING...KEEP SAY PEOPLE'S KIDS THIS GOOD THAT GOOD... COMPARE WHAT FUCK? YOU GUYS WANT ME COMPARE YOU TO MY FRIEND'S PARENTS? YOU WANT ME TO SAY... YOU SEE...MY FRIENDS FATHER CAN EARN MORE MONEY...CAN BUY SO MANY THINGS FOR MY FRIEND...DRIVE BIG CAR... OWN ALOT OF THINGS... YOU GUYS WANT ME TO SAY THIS KIND OF FUCKING THING ONLY YOU GUYS WILL UNDERSTAND MY FEELING IZIT? GET A LIFE MAN... OWH...SO WHEN I WIN COMPETITION... DO YOU GO N BRAG TO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS? I WIN ALREADY...NOTHING...ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! why? because sports isn't the IN thing now? now all compare attitude... and the thing i hate most...STUDIES.... what? then i win competition in sports don't have acknowledgments? Parents are good in 1 thing...which is lower our semangat.... keep push us study....

I hope in the future....i won't be as my parents...keep compare own kids with other kids... And to my friends...if in the future...you also compare your own kids to other kids....see i FUCK 9 U GUYS ANOT.... Look....i am always the unlucky one.... my results suck... Other friends who are more luckier than me... don't get these kind of lifestyles... DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE AT THE BOTTOM? WHERE PEOPLE ONLY LOOK DOWN ON YOU... WELL ACTUALLY I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME... JUST FREAKING BORED WITH THEIR EYESIGHT....

AND YOU! come from a rich family huh? drive big car huh? very geng right? belittle those ones who are poorer than you right? YOU WAIT... in the future....i see which girl u chase...i compete with you....just for the sake of winning you... because i didn't win you before in my college life.... poor people has their own rights and lives too.... YOU think they want to be poor? if everybody has a choice...they all want to be rich la...ASSHOLE! dont appriciate these people...if wasn't for them... who throw our rubbish for us....who will sell vegetables in the market...who will sweep the streets of our country? GOT THINK OF THAT? YOU THINK YOU RICH DAI SAI A? STILL A FREAKING JERK! you wait you wait.... 10 years from now...i will make sure that your every second is miserable... you will be worst that the people who sweeps the floor..... you wait....the hatred i shall gather it all up.... and once i release...i see how u die... when your parents are not on earth anymore...i see how u survive....

my friend say u said this ''quote'' before "myvi 不是人驾的"

"myvi 不是人驾的" will always be in my head

You wait!

Peace out!

efg

Don't know why is everybody emo-ing these days about the ones they love... I face problems too...but emo is not the best solution though...I'm not saying that emo-ing is wrong...but for me...its just not right....^^ Why will people emo? because the ones that they like don't like them back? Or because the ones that they like did something hurtful to them? I don't know..but everyone has their reason... Why should we emo? when we can throw away those feelings like i always throw my phone in the cupboard.... Throw your feelings away for a while...and do what you suppose to do... its your choice whether to open the cupboard again and emo yourself... Your call....

Friends.. don't let your friends emo... try to make them happy.. comfort them or maybe even give them guidance on how to solve their problems... I mean for me...i faced too much problems in relationships... Tell you guys a lil secret... i...NEVER get a girl before without anyone's help... My first girlfriend was with the help of my cousin... but i didn't appreciate her well...therefore i lost her... So now i am in the different college with my cousin... now...i am on my own...and i screw everything up...hmm..not enough experience i suppose....:(


For those who emo... cheer up...because if you emo now...there is alot more problems for you to face in the future...for me i kinda face alot of difficulties already...kinda used to it... My problems are no different than anyone else though...just that i faced kinda alot failures...:(


Yesterday..while talking to my friend...i almost teared because i was talking about the one i like with my friend... yeah...although didnt show out...but yeah...just don't know why i almost teared...just my eyes got wattery...the tears didnt get to fall out yet...i suck em back in... this is not the time to be sad...i still have tons of things to do... I can do alot of things for a girl that i like...maybe even freak the girl out... I bet alot of guys out there will also be like me and do everything for the girl they like.... Put her in priority and everytime we do things we will think of her first... But guys...we should't invest in some stocks that don't give us back any profit... So what guys will normally do is... stop what they are doing now after they found out that they are freaking out the girl or its wasting their time...








Few days ago...i was kinda chatting with this good friend of mine...talking about relationship stuffs and friendship stuff... The sentence i remembered the most is... The rich friends should mix with the rich friends...because they want to be richer... the normal range friends should mix with the normal range friends...and the poor ones with the poor ones... The normal ones cant go mix with the rich ones...because one thing...they can't keep up with the rich's lifestyle... sooner or later their friendship will end...and the friendship wont last long... Same as the poor ones mixing with the normal ranged ones... I dont mean to offend anybody...just an example.... For me...i think that in relationships...its also using the same "law".... For example... iphone can only be with iphone .... Symbian with Symbian...android and android... Iphone is like the higher grade...and symbian is the lowest grade...If symbian match up with Iphone...they wont be compatible and many problems will come out later.. because symbian's speed cant keep up with Iphone's IOS 5... And look at the price range... I think my examples are clear...Try to understand... :)



im tired of chasing something that never was really mine...

Peace Out

abc

Wow...huh...can't believe i can learn so many things from the college life i m living right now...

Some friends...True friends...when you do something like sing or dance...they will see where is your mistakes and try to correct you...Normal friends...will support you all the way...Fake friends...will say you dance/sing ar? Might as well don't perform....your singing is even more suckish than me...later you sing all people go deaf...

Now i know...that having more than what others do...does matter... People always say to be happy with what you have now and appreciate... Somehow i think thats bullshit...people are so materialistic nowdays... Because i never had the best...out of 10...my grade is just around 7 or 8...its not the best... I want to have the best in everything...coz i m damn fad-up of things nowdays.... Assholes....so many guys...and i mean big size guys...can have a damn hot gf...thats just not true....many people always say because the guy is damn rich.... Now u see what i mean?

I don't wish to have a hot girlfriend...because i know that she is not true and our relationships won't last long...i just wanted to have more when i meet the right girl so that i don't screw things up...

Went to this revolving restaurant around Bukit Bintang i guess....coz was random...after watching Mike He filming...then want celebrate my sis's birthday...so randomly parents said go to revolving restaurant....Went there and ordered their set dinner which only cost around 78 if i m not mistaken? First time took pictures when i eat...parents all stare at me...xP

Appetizer

Mushroom soup

Main Event...Mushroom+mashed potato+chicken

Desert...forgoten the left 1...right 1 is only coffee

I went thinking before....why i don't really like these kind of place before... I think perhaps i don't like them coz got alot of guys bring the partner there... And when i thought of it...hmm...my chances of bringing YOU to such place....neh....not that high percentage... If i really had a chance to bring YOU to these kind of place...the place won't be only in bukit bintang...it will be somewhere higher class...but i only can afford that after i work.... I won't use my parent's money...its like some Bai Ka Zai...take parents money go paktoh? no meaning... Its like your dad bought you a brand new ferrari...and you didnt pay a single ringgit to your dad...whats the point?

No matter how many times I get hurt because of you, I won't leave you. Because even if I have a hundred reasons to leave you, I'll look for that one reason to fight for you. I will always be there for you...just one call and I'll be there~~

Peace OUT