Whee

Holidays really can kill people...Well at least it managed to kill me... I am like rotting inside my house everyday.... Playing computer, going for basketball, driving here and there, etc.

On the second week of the holiday, really can't sleep at night.... Not because i had my nap in the afternoon and was not sleepy at night.... I've tried not to take my nap and still fail to sleep at night... My research shown that i must be in bed rolling here and there for 1 hour before i fall asleep.... There's many things in my head....and getting them out is what I want, but not what can do... 1 hour consists of thinking college life....friends....and i've found out that another thing is in my head that prevents me from sleeping.... Well I guess it her alrite... What ta do...

I think i shouldn't waste time already....Well i guess my type of liking someone is for the fun of it...I don't really want to be in a relationship actually... I don't know why i must go and hope on something that I don't want and won't be a reality... Humans, will meet their true love twice in their lives, the first one....Well, the moment you know, you had already missed him/her. So comes the second one that i think nobody would want to miss out....

People say loving somebody doesn't mean that they have to be in a relationship....weird huh? I don't know, maybe thats true though...I think that i should just get used to it... But personally i think thats bullshit... Lets say you go up to this girl/guy and express your feelings...rejected...Good...nice one! at least you tried! Now get on with your life.... Looking on the bright side, the feeling of being rejected is short-termed....IF you didn't express your feelings and keep it inside you....you won't feel comfortable in the future....Lets put it like this, this girl you like suddenly is in a relationship...and you can't do anything but look at them and carrying a bad feeling everytime you see what you least want to see... I think most people know that looking at the person you like being with another partner....that feeling really makes us want to commit suicide...So I really salute those guys who aren't afraid of rejection and go up to the girl and express their feelings....*hats off

peace out