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斗牛要不要

i just finished watching this movie today at 2.30am...i was really touched with the story...because the story let me felt something special than other dramas....the story line is almost the same as my life...that is why i love it...but others say that the story line sucks...i dont't know why...but..who cares...all that matter is that i love it...

The story is about a guy...met up with this girl...who is annoying...and they fell in love...and at the peak of it..they cant be together....because their family background are not so compatible...when the time they have to split...its the saddest moment...they love for each other is so strong...why cant they be together...in addition...one side must sacrifice for another side...for their own good...although its a drama...but i felt that sadness....this sadness cannot be found in most of the dramas...only this movie-斗牛要不要...

A relationship is like a basketball competition...dont give up when there is no result yet...do your best...and when u ask yourself...you won't regret...because you tried your best in everything...same goes to relationship...if you found your true love...you must fight for it...true love won't drop down from the sky like rain and run to you...if you found your true love and didnt to anything...got shit use?

do to all the singles out there....放胆去追。。。真爱站在你前面。。。不做东西有屁用啊？？？！！！真爱是不会从天上掉下来的！！！

toh-day is my birthday..whoohoo

toh-day..is my 17th birthday...although many frens post on my facebook wall..and i repied all of them..but seriously..very tired...haha...and thanks to all my friends that wished me happy birthday..!!

P.S>today saw your post on my wall..very happy!! i thought you wont notice that today is my birthday...and saw the post on my wall....makes me very happy!!♥.♥ ...ya..i know we could not be together...although we can be together...but the possibility is...lets say..err...20%? you are too good for me!!

My birthday is on the 9th...IT MEANS...ANOTHER 14 MORE DAYS TO SPM!!!....WHAT SHOULD I DO? there's no point if i panic now...its the price i have to pay for not studying earlier...so...gotta study from now onwards...

well..that's all i gotta say today..if got more things to say...maybe i will edit this post and add something...or i will make another post...!!hehe


♥.♥

relationships~~

DAMN...can you leave me alone? why when i am ready for a relationship...then i cant get any....but when i am frustrated...relationship comes to me....what to you want from me man? aint my life suffering enough because of you...in my life..is it true that when you want something...you must earn it yourself? and it wont be easy?but when you dont want it...it wants you...so i am damn confused...should we fight for our good relationship? or should we wait for it to come to us?

thursday!!

ooo..today first time so near you..so happy....♥.♥

SPM is coming

Busy with my studies nowdays....dun hav time to blog....there are many things happening in my life....i wished they are not true....but i am just bluffing myself....



Congrats....you found a new boyfriend...but you tell me you dont want to be in a relationshop....now i know how u hated me....you can tell me if u dun like me...you dont need to act in front of me...maybe you are tired of acting....but never mind...my friends told me who your boyfriend was...and yeah....his looks....not as good as mine...nerd....maybe that is the kind you like? well...what can i say...good luck coupling....pui!!!


i now damn tired of loving....there is this 1 girl....i knew her since primary....we gotten quite close...we can text everyday....but then...one day...she stopped replying my messages....i dont know why...mayb because i m too annoying? what can i do to stop that...for a few days....we were like couples....we texted many sweet things by calling each others nicknames....i thought she liked me too....but i was wrong....it was me....that have fallen in love with her....then now she stopped texting with me....do you know how it feels? i was damn stupid...thought she liked me...i wasted my time on her...the cut inside me is hard to be treated....now...i am afraid to love again....



There is only another 35 more days to spm....and 2 more months until i start college life....i will try to concertrate 200% on my studies....i want to be the best....no time for love....no...absolutely no time...love is damn lame...and i suck in it....after college....i will try to go overseas if i had the money....and when i come back...i will totally be a different person...i want to be the best in IT...i will set up my own company...be the best of the best...i will create something better than microsoft....that many of ppl will use.....I WANT...AND I WILL...BE THE KING OF IT!!!



SCREW RELATIONSHIP!!!

Finally had the time to sit down and blog!!

i know every1 of you...had been on the roads...well i think you all will be looking at sign boards or thinking of something...well...guess what i am thinking everytime when i am on the road....i will see many expensive cars on the road and started thinking....WHY? WHY they can drive such expensive car? why they can...but i cant? i always tell myself...its not that i cant...is i dont deserve to drive such cars....me? i dont have determination in studies....i aint that stupid you see....so why can i drive the same cars as them? well....someday...i will prove that i am capable!!!!









*** ***...i think that you are the one for me...i cant hold my feelings back whenever i saw u....you have been cold to me sometimes....didnt reply my messages....well...i thought alot of things....i will think that you hated me or think that i am annoying...i did that to forget you....but as i see...i cant forget you....a few months ago...when i found a girlfriend...to make me forget about you....i didnt dare to let you know that i am with another girl...dont know why...maybe just bcoz i think too much? or i perasaan?


SPM is near...and i am afraid that i will lose contact with you...i wanted to tell you how much i love you...but i am afraid of rejections...just like any other guys...i may be weak in studies....but the feeling...its not weak...in a matter of fact....its getting stronger...




I Love you!!!

its a long long time...

dont know leh...why these days...dont feel like smsing already....facebook oso got on...but on already dont know what to do....sien...anybody can entertain me?

what the hell am i doing?????????

here am i....wondering nowhere....just wasting my precious time facebooking.....so much time wasted on that shit...i wish i could have more determination...but...it is hard to find....now i am on my fathers phone to write this blog to write about how i feel..... If i cotinue like that...i am gonna lose everything....my future will not be bright....i will be looked down by people and maybe even the girl i like.....she is so hardworking...and i m just nothing compaired to her....worthless junk...i can say...yeah....maybe someone with a better qualification can bring her happiness...just hope that nobody harms her...or break her heart...or else i will break his neck!!!!!

the word i hate most

today is kelas ganti for dono whichmonday...but i go anyway...its was boring...then until the chinese subject...i keep ask teacher questions...and slowed down the class...then suddenly my friend shouted out...老师,他自我放气了的...i heard the four words suddenly made my blood boil...i may be weak...but i havent given up on myself...nobody can judge me like that...!!!!!

What Should I do?

i got my results...8 fail...what should i do?

DuKaoLan

so hard to talk with her...i m not a pro topic finder la...so i cannot find so many topic at once...why u keep close my topic...u think how i feel..? u say sien...talk to you...then u act lidat...i dono wat are you thinking la...can u at least tell me? i find topic to talk until can crazy u noe...waliao...



sorry la if i cannot keep you entertained...

Confusing~~~

so many days din talk to her ad...feeling abit down...its like eating porridge without anything...my life is plain without her...I asked myself y duwan to talk to her...cannot ans


Me: i miss her, i want to talk to her.

Another me: go talk to her for wat...waste ur time oni...u like her oso duwan to tell
her...lidat how is she going to noe o...if u dowan to tell her...just dun
talk to her la stupid shit.

Me: wat if i tell her...then kena reject? how u wan me to live with that "fear" in me
do you know the feelings of being rejected? i dont even have anymore confident in
myself...sometime i think...can c her to be happy...is enuf...bt when time passes
i hope to be more than just her fren...but can i? i dun think so...

Another me: that is you freking problem la...like a gal bt dun dare to tell...u think
she knows you well meh? knows wat r u thinking...wait long long la

Me: I DONO I DONO I DONO...go left oso wrong go right oso wrong...wat you wan me to
do?















I should hav known that seksyen 4 has the present giving thing...i forgoten ad...when i remembered...oso too late ad...i was planning to give her lollipop...bt..oso dun hav the chance...too late le....regret so much....~~~

9 days of not talking to her~~~i think~~

Hmm...i dono how i felt..but i felt...empty...and not used to it...i hav my own reason not to talk to her...coz i m afraid that my prediction will come true...that is 1 prediction that only myself knows....These 9 days i din talk to her even a single word...makes me feel uncomfortable...coz i m so used to talking to her everyday....knowing that she is happy....but now...i cannot comfirm if she is happy or sad....if she is sad....i hope can share her sadness...make her happy or wat...if she is happy....i hope i can be the reason she is happy...but wat to do...it wont happen...she wont like me...

Wasted time~~~

So Sien...wasted so many time on her...but i wun get her de la...u like another guy de ma...bt duwan tell me ma..i noe...nvm la...go like la...u should be with the right guy anyway...haha...congrats...bb

Simply...ntg to type...

Today...go skul...got 1 guy...teach us how to study...he is from Segi college...weird guy...indian....the 1 shit thing i remembered is his way of learning...he says...in order to learn better...we mus do revision twice the time we were in skul...means 5x5=25....25x2=50...50/7...is 7 hours a day....to do revision...qi xiao!!!....means...i nid to go skul at 7...come back at 1..then do revision until 8pm...then can ply 2 hours until sleep at 10...gila...i aint gona do that...its the opposite way compared to the way yuber thought me....shit man....tat guy is all study hard....bt yuber its study smart....and i think i will go wif yuber....yuber Rox!!!...






I tell u all....its doesnt feel good when the person u like jokes wif u abt the person u dun like...its like ....she knows i like her...bt stil go tell me to like another gal...i oso confused...dono wat to do...i wished i could do it now....bt...deng...spm la...get fail ad ma die lo...so i dono wat to do now...i oso noe i got joke wif her the ppl she dun like...doesnt feel good la...seriously...coz tis person is veli annoying de...cannot do anything...everytime i talked abt him...she oso will call me to stop...i tis year form 4 ma good...dunid stress abt spm...niama...add maths so hard...and that doesnt make maths easier...






Have you played a girl b4?? doesnt feel good?? or dun tell me u feel good doing that...i can seriously tell u...ply gal....NOT NICE...its veli stupid....coz its not real relationship...so wat u waste money sms wif her...i omost ply 1 gal...bt refused la...coz i oso dun hav any problems wif her...i dun even noe her...bt i think she like me...according to my fren...ply until half...i think...better tell her the truth...coz its not me wan ply her...its my fren call me ply de...so i scold her a few bad words and didn't sms from tat day onwards...until dono when...So i nid to tell the boys out there....ply gal..its wasting ur time...and doesnt benefit you...useless la...waste time n money on sumting u dont really want...y dont just use that money to get sumthing or sum1 you can love and tressure...









Is it easy to say I LOVE YOU??? i think its easy for other boys....bt i dun think its easy for me...wan say the 3 words i rather go study add maths....bcoz i dun hav confident...scared of kena rejected...wat to do...i think its normal gua...coz after i say the three words...it will make me a different person the other day...i could me emo...or a boyfren to somebody...so mus think carefully....oni say the 3 words when u r sure that u will suceed...dun do it without thinking....its will make ur life worst....