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Sup...Long didnt no see...Just came back from Australia last week... Opened my eyes to alot of things that i didnt know before i went...

Since like i was young... My plan is to study Inti college...Study American degree transfer program...and go to America to further my studies... Because that time, my naive mind says that Malaysia has no good college to go to and America is recognized so its a good choice... And my other reason is to leave Malaysia... Until a few years later, nothing has changed... I still think that Malaysia has many negative things... Dangerous...Very behind technology... People does not have manners... I think many people out there will think like me too....

Until i went to Australia... Now i kinda think that Malaysia is a nice place to live in... I mean sure.. Australia has better technology...has better air...cleaner water...polite people...and most of all it is safer than Malaysia... But can we afford to go there? Their food are over priced...for either currency...Aussie dollar and Malaysia dollar... In Malaysia, you can easily get 5 bucks per plate or maybe 7/8 bucks per plate of food... With addition to beverage, it is more or less rm10 right? Well... Idk is it me or what...but in Australia, the food i ate...is at least 10 dollars... Most epic is.. I added one egg on my fried rice... It costed 3dollars... Maybe its me who is not so exposed to many things...But in my opinion..those prices are very expensive...

 I mean yeah.. you can complain... We work in Malaysia we earn around 5k... In australia they will also earn around 5k... Our imported cars...take Honda Civic for example.. In Malaysia it costs around RM140k.. Well in AUS, it cost only around 25k dollars... If you are working in australia you can easily afford a honda civic... A 2/3 years Volkswagen Golf Gti is only around 18k dollars... Very affordable... But we see things we must see overall... Actually it also depends on a person's personal perspectives...

For people who are in Malaysia and wanted to go overseas dont care migrate or any shit like study... Can you afford going there?(Not looking down) Can you cope with the studies there? I mean if you are rich yeah you sure can afford going there... For this case its not Aus its other countries... Our Malaysian education system everybody knows it... Can you really be able to cope with the studies there? Besides that, our broken English... How are we going to communicate with them? How are we gonna compete with them... They are competitive, we asians are shy..(For some) Even for my college...it is counted as hard for us... And its already hard for some of us to even get a credit... And the retake fees are damn high and bullshit... So you think you can take on European studying style? And you think if you fail out there... your parents will pay for your retake fees? Dream on.. Unless you are rich... Or else you will be on your next flight back home to Malaysia...

To be honest... The food in Aus is nice... Not until i tasted the chinese food there...finally the taste that i m familiar with... Most memorable is the chinese restaurant i went at night for dinner and the waitress who looks like the female actress in "nia xie nian"...

Seriously though....eating outside food for 1 week... On the plane they served some rendang curry chicken with rice and a slice of cake and fruits... The rendang...i m not picky with my foods, but that rendang really almost can make me cry lol.... Seriously...nothing beats the taste of our own country's food... Finished the whole set in like 15 minutes, stuffing everything in my mouth...ended up with a full stomach and hard to sleep....haha...

But seriously la...why go overseas and migrate when you have family and friends here... For me i can't say much la..family..not that much...but friends... And i think everybody should be thankful for the country they stay in...you gotta remember which country let you meet your partner? I know la...very old school..but seriously ma...haha.. YOLO

Owh crappy crap crap, finally finish... i used 3 days for this..== Got 2 new songs... the first song ending too long d... so skip to next song if you want of course...

This time no crappy quotes ba... i really done stupid things...but i have to do this... Idk why..just i got a feeling i should ...

BTW thanks for those comments on the comment section...idk if you all are spams or real person... But anyway, thanks though..

PEACE OUT!!

(Above are all my own opinion...not meaning to insult or offend any1)

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Yesterday i went to an award giving event which my uncle's company won an award.... It was quite ok and it quite an eye opener for me, as i am not that exposed to formal events...wearing formal wear (monkey suit)....Meeting powerful people and knowing important people that might make a change for our future....

As i noticed, an uncle sitting next to me.... Heard from my cousin, he was the company's top salesman and now he has stroke which made it harder for him to eat or use much energy... That night, i witnessed true love man... His wife, who looks quite young... Takes care of her husband like a small kid.... Patiently and full of love... When the food is served, she sliced those meat into smaller portion for her husband to eat... Without helping herself with the food first, she made sure that her husband eats first.... Its quite touching... Knowing that a wife takes good care of her husband who went through stroke... 

Then....my "creative" brain started to think ridiculous things....which is the reason why am i blogging at 1.02 a.m. and not studying for my finals on Wednesday.... At that time, my brain was like thinking... Apart from what i witnessed, idk how my brain managed to pick up this kind of thoughts.... Its something like...people use to say that we will end up marrying somebody else younger than us.... We will usually end up marrying the girl that is in the same workplace as us.... I mean, is there no marriage that is brought up since high school or college anymore? Chances are very low, to be honest. Its easy to hang out with a person, but to live under the same roof, that's another challenge. Can they? 

Randomly i have this fear, fear of knowing the fact that if i get into a relationship now, i cannot like maintain the relationship until i grow up.... K With this fear, its quite sad to for me to find out that fact. I mean there are still percentage that we are going to end up marrying our partners since like high school, college or universities. I've seen relationships same sort happened before and quite believe the existence. I hereby really want to tell the future guy who is going to guarantee your life and make you happy in the future, that he is one lucky asshole..... Any chance of hurting you, i would really like to burn down his house, car, etc. I still believe there are still guys out there who will do anything just to make you happy.



The worst worst feeling is i don't know what you want ; and i don't know what i want...

Every minute i spend without you is every minute i waste...


Peace out

lie

Today was at the library...doing my notes and suddenly a group of new students came in for the library tour by a librarian.... So...new students huh....they will be studying in a new environment...Unlike high school...have too much rules and stuff like that.... Now with a new environment...they have to meet new friends and from many groups of friends...they will have their own "gang".... A gang is a group of people that you are comfortable with....

But still....starting a new life in college...doing foundation programs.... Having new friends.... Its all a freaking lie.... Friends who are new will not show you their true color first... Due to make a good impression on other people...ya right...they will show you what you like to see..... Because if they show you who they really are, which i think most probably has many flaws and are problematic... They wont have friends who are willing to make friends with them.... Ironic huh...well its sad but its still a true story after all... I mean there are many people who have many problems with their attitude and stuffs like that... College is a new start and a new life all over again.... Its not the same as high school and primary school where everybody is naive and can have fun together....

 In college or university...people tend to be more secretive and fake.... Because college for us is like taking one big step in life to the real world, the real working world... Because life is not fair and we have to learn to live on with it.... I think for me...high school is almost the last place where you can have real friends... Because you spend 5 years together through thick and thin.... For college and universities....everybody has different backgrounds and gone through different things... Thats the reason that made them what they are today.... An attitude is not developed over a week or a month... It is through what they gone through and by the experience they gain.... Still i'm in no place to judge how a person is, but at least also try to make in as not obvious as possible la... Ma de with that attitude....gao lan meh.....What for you hide your flaws and problems....and put on a mask that is able to convince people... Humans sure have problems with humans... And the choice is in your hands on how to react to them... For me just don't care about them....i think maybe its me...since i was young... Maybe its me being too fake...sometimes i just don't know who am i.... Owh well.... I just can say....some people who are important to me...if they are just fucked up and do sohai.....2nd day i can don't care about them... For me its just like one less friend...who has problems.... I had many friends b4... And for those friends who are not important...they are just another friend...I wouldn't care less about them... Maybe it changes too fast...the mask i wear on my face...its too fake and sometimes it even convinced me that i was not wearing any mask and was ME... 

It depends on if i want to state it out or not.... I didn't state things out doesn't mean i don't see or know anything.... Sometimes its just me too lazy to voice it out....

Everything i said is what i meant...if you ask me i wouldn't deny anything about what i post...So...i know sure got people who hate me de la....Dont read this blog if its stabbing you in the heart (which makes my point real about you)... 

I can’t control my feelings, but I hate how my feelings control me.

Peace out...