Crap

Hey...sup bro n sis... what up? Mah blog is soo dead right now...had a boring holiday and spent all my time on going out with friends, assignments and gaming of course...xP

I once saw a picture on 9gag or other websites saying that children born after the year 1996 is a disaster... Is it true? whats your opinion? For me, i guess its freaking true!! I mean based on my personal experience...Yeap they are a disaster and hell of a pain the the arse... For me, my parents don't teach them the basic manners that they taught me last time when i was still a children.. What? Do they actually do not care now? When i was little, one small mistake i will be scolded badly with no mercy... Well typical chinese family... But now, my parents don't scold my siblings anymore... ==... Which is so not freaking fair... There is a few times where i HAVE to fetch them out with me for dinner and lunch... They sat at the back seat.. I was like WTF... So now i your driver? #assholePlease ... Even if its my parents fetching them, they will still be sitting at the back seat... Then 1 day i asked my mom Y SHE NO teach them basic manners? I think that 1 day when i can't take it anymore i will freaking shout at them... I not their driver k! Only my gf deserves me to drive them around..not them...zzz..

OK back to normal life not family life.... Family life is boring and has nothing special... Tomorrow my mother coming back from china... end of my free life...crap... So...what i think is that some people nowdays like to show off their family fortune huh? That is what i think after they take money as something easy to earn in front of me... Well...thats not your freaking money ...d-u-h... You want to show me you are rich? Earn money yourself and not taking your parents's money and flashing out everywhere like you own it... Its kinda boring and lifeless when see people does that... Lets say i earn 60 bucks a day...i m still richer than you....#inyourface... all your money come from parents...whats there to show? I see many friends say wah people drive what car what car... I said...so? not their money anyway...they are just showing that their parents are capable of earning money and can afford to spend xpensive things for them... Please... i have rich friends too...and they do not rely on their parents for money ...duh... They work their ass out to pay everything... Car, petrol, food... yeah you heard that right... Car..although the car is not big..but at least they are earning the money themselves... That i salute... If its that easy, i might as well take my parents money and donate to orphanage or beggers..then i m doing a good deed...Hell no..zzz... I m just taking my parents's money and donating it away...zz....#lifeless...

Have you had the feeling where you wanted to do something important... But everything just turn their backs on you? Everything just doesnt go smoothly for you... That is the most bullshit feeling ever... I had my experience too though... Well.... i emo for awhile and said... Well this is not working out...I should find other solutions rather than sit here emo... Its a waste of time anyway....might as well try to save the solution, at least giving it a second shot its also worth it.... Just to say, if somethings didnt turn out as smoothly as you expected... Maybe they are not suppose to happen? And any effort done is into the garbage bin... For me, i often accept negative results that are not according to plan... Well...who doesn't...LOL..

For one human being to love another that is perhaps the most difficult of our tasks; the ultimate, the last test and proof; the work for which all other work is but preparation.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke

Love is the emblem of eternity: it confounds all notion of time:
effaces all memory of a beginning, all fear of an end.
~ Germaine De Stael

Peace out!

Hey!

So boring...never liked holidays...rather spend my time with friends....

Went Petronas Science center...saw 1 girl...reminds me of my x crush... I think this girl is secondary school if i m not mistaken...really looked like her... :) Well that reminds me of the time when i m in high school...Form 4...I am in the "newspaper delivery" service with my friends...so during assembly we can walk around the school where everybody else stone there listening to principal "singing"... So that time i had my eye on 1 girl...she was a school prefect and she is in charge of a specific spot in the school... So during one assembly...i wanted to talk to her, so my 2 best friends accompany me to find her...She was at 1 end of the corridor and i was at the other...Walking towards her...the feeling is damn special... Its a mixture of nervous and "IDK what to say"... So was walking walking...half way i wanted to turn back...But i guess its weird for a guy to walk half way n turn away... Owh and FYI...i don't know this girl, so its like i m approaching her to get to know her kind of stuff...Never tried that before though...and i know Asians don't really does that i guess? Owh well...When i approached her, there's no sense of rejection so i manage to vomit out a few questions... Yeah she was shy n i was like damn nervous...please...lol...First time man...Scary... So yeah that was a scary experience when i was in high school...this girl from the science center reminded me of her...Owh well...xD *sweet memories... i still remember the moment where i punch the wall because i was too scared... *my approach wasn't once...its like more than 7 TIMES! and i only get 1 correctly...others i freaked out and walked away...kena scolded by my friends...xS

Owh well...i guess the opportunity to approach the girl that i like which i don't know is not gonna happen again? After high school...its more complicated..you can't go and approach and girl and talk like that... You will be given one tight slap.... And its straight forward.... If the girl doesn't like you...there will be a big red light there...and maybe you will b turned down right on the spot... (Wootz? Why today so got feel to write love stories..xD)

Owh ya...anybody has the feeling of being liked by the person that you wanted to be only friends? So...interview session..how's the feeling? good or scary? Why is it good? Because you have the attention? How is the feeling of being liked by a person nice again? Please...If you don't like him or her...just tell them man...dont freaking waste their time and energy...they are better of with somebody if its not you... Some like the feeling which i think the feeling is very scary! You can see their every moves...everything they said then you will have a picture of them liking you in their mind...WTH...scares the shit out of me...Aint nice Aint nice...dont like... Thats why when you like someone...DO NOT show it out...i repeat DO NOT show it out...it will turn out negative if that person don't know how to handle the feeling...Owh well..xD...thats life...damn interesting...thats the risk you gotta take....awesome shitz...

In my post all the things are #JUSTSAYING!! I REPEAT #JUSTSAYING....doesn't apply to any individuals...awesome shitz eh? but seriously its #JUSTSAYING! don't take it personally...#truestory

I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes i catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you every now and then.

So...

Sup guys...have been quite some time i didnt update blog...Lazy to write anything...When i have the feel...i wasn't with my computer...so just screw the updating...

So...how's life? Pfft...what a bad starting line...


Is female and male that different? Why the stories i heard from my female friends always give me a nice shock... Saying that their other female friends treat them this n that way... Ain't female and male the same? I mean no offence some say female are abit more complicated than men... #truestory? It seems like female's friendship...got abit complicated... Maybe i m just hearing one side of the story...i haven heard the worst in males..but so far that i can see...male friends are more...true? Like in movies and shit...female friends always backstab female friends and have problems with female friends...well for guys...when they have issues....its mostly about girls...aint that right? So back to topic... When female are with female...idk...they seem abit fake with each other...not being their true self and talk what they don't feel like talking...

Well for me..my guy friends are like all my bestie...With them i can talk crap and shit stuffs...Guys and guys can talk for hours on craps and shits... And they dont backstab their friends and are true to their friends....(or is it the male friends i mix with are just awesome?) Me and my old school mate...although didnt meet for many months because he is busy...when we hang out...we can talk for hours and still thinks the time is insufficient... Guys and guys don't need what high-tea...go fancy restaurants to have a drink and chat... Like what me n my friend did last night was 2 guys i was fetching him home...so in the car we had a nice conversation also....#easypeasy... Even when i reach his house...we can sit in the car and chat for awhile because we don't know when only we can have the opportunity to have a nice conversation like this...We were like old school mates...but the friendship there is still like normal...like how we act in our high school life... And its funny though...in my high school life...we all had issues among each other....always have fights and arguments....now we all hang out...its like all best friends...although some haven change...still that bit bit sarcastic and monkey-like...but yeah they're just aww-sum


you see....the thing is....i don't know if in the future i can have these awee-sum friends with me... In my working days....when we're still all single...maybe come out mamak stores to chill and talk about shit stuffs in our high school life and complain about our love life...xD I don't know how long we have the opportunity to have fun like this... I can't imagine when we all get married...xD ....the gay guys talk will be much lesser....because we all need to focus on our families...children and wife... :)...


(The way i look at things is the way things happen around me...If the things happening around you is not the same as me...then dun blame me for stereotyping...)





Friday night...me and my friends go to this competition at this small shopping mall? Basketball competition...well... This awesome girl..she is there...:) talk to her alot that night...have funny conversations and stuff.... When i got home...i was like...re-call the moments we had... Only i realize...nah...i do not like her ... Well i think i like her because she is nice and friendly...although she don't look hot...but personality that matters right? So i was like acting "myself" in front of her...haha...which is not the normal thing i do in front of the girl i like.... I was comfortable in front of her...can talk many crap and shit like i used to...and enjoyed the moment...

Is it me or is it all guys will act differently in front of the person he like? Or is it all human beings are like that...Well for me if i act normally in front of any girl...means i don't like them... I wished its easy to like someone new...:) then the pain would be less... But i couldn't...i envy people can recover from a break-up in like days and going out with another girl already? Owh well...guess its just old-fashion-me... :)))









Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.



Peace out Yo!