Hello, its been like almost 5 months i haven't touch my blog its because the layout has run out of position and I'm that lazy to find another template for my blog... Hence, the laziness and didn't blog much, well in my defense during Q4 of 2013 i was having my finals study period so didn't have any time to sit down and write something, those times were intense due to studying...
After my finals examination, i got 3 months of semester break and as expected, i went back to work at an animal shop, since i do not really like corporate work at that point of time. Thats when it all changes, although i gave my resignation letter 2 days after my first day, i know thats what i wanted and its whats best for me. Actually, i would have thought that i will regret my decision of working in a pet shop, but as it turns out, its directly the opposite. Over the 1 month 2 days of working at the pet shop, i am able to figure out what i want to do with my life and its definitely not at a pet shop picking up dumps of dogs although i have no problem doing so... This 1 month and 2 days really changed how i look at things and understand more about what the hell are people thinking. And yes, this is another recap post that i usually do after a long period of semester break. Im not gonna type essays for the rest of the post so im just gonna give a header and elaborate on it... Dont judge me... :)
(All of my examples are not belittle-ing my friends and colleagues, I respect them and their job, its just my personal point of view, nothing personal)
Life will be simple
All I can say is working at a pet shop, you will live a simple life. This is not ideal for most of the human beings. Having that salary and that working hours, you will not have any time for yourself. Yes, this job does not require high qualifications and anybody with or without experience can apply for the job. This job will have only a slight chance of having politics in the workplace, it will be competitive to fight for the commission, otherwise its a decent place for people who do not like politics in their workplace. BUT working in a pet shop, with that pay... You will not dare to even to think on going for a vacation, because financially its difficult to survive in a big city and have alot of money left in the bank at the end of the month.
People will look down on you
There will always be assholes in every department in every sector that is rude and act like they are rich and nothing else matters. They think that people in who works at pet shops are not educated and do not deserve much respect. One thing they do not know is some are having financial difficulties and are unable to further studies after high school.
Next is the people in general, people who are at our sides, not customers of the shop. In my experience, working in the pet shop really lower my self esteem and confidence by alot, im earning that 1k per month and other people are making big bucks. I've been silenced up in a conversations by using money, something which I do not have and apparently the other person has, alot ... Worst of all I've never tried being silenced up by a girl... So swallowing my temper at that time was one of the hardest thing I've done since young, usually i have something to say back...But at that point of time, i know i got nothing, I am indeed do not have as much money as her. When you thought the worst is over... There comes somebody who thinks that I cannot afford my own lunch. Yes, my salary is low... The food prices around my workplace is sky high... Yes, im limiting my budget to 10 bucks per day for 3 meals.. Yes i'm eating chocolate bar for dinner... NOT because i cannot afford the food price at my area, its because i am trying out the lifestyle that i might end up in...IF i do not study hard now... I'm ok with anybody inviting me to eat lunch with them and them paying for the meal afterwards... But come to me with a take away lunchbox? And say wanna treat me? That's just downright proving that u have something wrong with your brain...
You can't actually be taken seriously (Depends on what type of friends you usually mix with)
Being the lowest underdog of a gang of friends, having the worst lifestyle among friends and not to mention, earning the least money in a gang of friends. People might think, 'hey its not that bad, i choose to live my life like that and money is not always important'. Yea starting its easy to cope, but when time goes by...it will start to get into your head.
Skip friends and your surroundings aside, lets talk further... Talk about life partners shall we? Picture this, working as a 'Pet Care Consultant'... Imagine how would your partner tell his/her friends what their boyfriend/girlfriend is working as. Imagine meeting his/her parents...when they ask 'So tell me what do you do for a living'... 'Owh uncle aunty... I work as a pet care consultant at a pet shop' The first thing they will hear is 'working at a pet shop'... And then they will start figuring out how much you earn per month... Ofcourse, parents would expect their children to find a decent partner with a decent job and that has a high chance of getting married and not worry about their finance problems.
People's offday, your workday; People's workday, your offday
The header of this section has already spoken for itself.... The start of the few months of working, you wouldn't feel anything serious but once you work long period... You start hanging out with your friends at night and when the next day is a Saturday, you still need to head home to sleep earlier while your friends have fun outside without you. Its just a matter of time that when will this thinking get inside your head and you finally realize stuff and want to change for the better. What if your other half does not work at a pet shop and works regular hours on weekdays and breaks on weekends. Relationships will be hard to maintain since you both don't like meet regularly and like literally regularly, one of you will be working at all times and probably too tired and want to rest on your offday but still it depends on the efforts
Unable to provide
I was quite close to one of my female colleague and was like chatting in group chats and all... Then until one day she says that her husband/fiance is abit jealous. Its like every time she gets a message notification, her husband will ask is it me. This may sound funny to some person, but I really do not want to do stupid stuff and ruin a relationship. I do not know what level of jealousy is her husband at or is it like furious jealous or just mild jealous. I can't predict how other people will feel but if it were me, I would be want-to-burn-the-other-guy's-house furious. When you know somebody is better than you and can provide what you can't, it really increases the insecurity level to it's max. Yes, many comments will be like saying it also depends on the girl if she's loyal and what not. But this is a guy's principle, to give whats best for their other half and make sure she is happy. Therefore, in order for myself not to go through that kind of lifestyle, worrying and feeling insecurity... I probably wont get into a relationship in another 5 years at least because I could not afford and still NOT QUALIFIED for that position.
Never tell anyone your problems, 20% don't care and 80% are glad you have them
Few of my friends were like advising me not to tell everybody anything that they ask. Yeap I admit then whoever ask me anything, i'll tell the truth...Regardless of the question, any personal question, you dare to ask i will dare to answer you... But must see how close are we and whether are you ready to know the answer that will come out from my mouth or not.. From now on, i'll try to limit what i tell people whom I just met and not so close with them, in order to prevent future back-stabs.
You guys took my presence for granted. act like as if I was not there... You will never know how pissed off I was at that point of time, I respected you guys and treat all of you without putting on a mask and this is what I get in return? Well Played
The knife you all stabbed behind my back, too bad it didn't manage to kill me. I have friends and cousins who wanted to help me take out those knifes... But... I'll leave it there for the time being... To remind myself what I been through. To remind myself don't be so naive. When the time is right, I will take them all out...and slowly one by one stab all of you...not in the back...in the face...and i'll make sure all of you have a taste of what i felt and multiply the feeling by more than you can ever withstand. And especially the one whose knife is the deepest, I will take the knife out, change it to a fucking machete or a fucking katana and do what I must to have my revenge. You've pissed off the wrong horoscope.
If one day I wake up and I do not have the feeling of burning your house down, I will chop off my head and let you to use it as a stool.
Peace Out
