DuKaoLan

so hard to talk with her...i m not a pro topic finder la...so i cannot find so many topic at once...why u keep close my topic...u think how i feel..? u say sien...talk to you...then u act lidat...i dono wat are you thinking la...can u at least tell me? i find topic to talk until can crazy u noe...waliao...



sorry la if i cannot keep you entertained...

Confusing~~~

so many days din talk to her ad...feeling abit down...its like eating porridge without anything...my life is plain without her...I asked myself y duwan to talk to her...cannot ans


Me: i miss her, i want to talk to her.

Another me: go talk to her for wat...waste ur time oni...u like her oso duwan to tell
her...lidat how is she going to noe o...if u dowan to tell her...just dun
talk to her la stupid shit.

Me: wat if i tell her...then kena reject? how u wan me to live with that "fear" in me
do you know the feelings of being rejected? i dont even have anymore confident in
myself...sometime i think...can c her to be happy...is enuf...bt when time passes
i hope to be more than just her fren...but can i? i dun think so...

Another me: that is you freking problem la...like a gal bt dun dare to tell...u think
she knows you well meh? knows wat r u thinking...wait long long la

Me: I DONO I DONO I DONO...go left oso wrong go right oso wrong...wat you wan me to
do?















I should hav known that seksyen 4 has the present giving thing...i forgoten ad...when i remembered...oso too late ad...i was planning to give her lollipop...bt..oso dun hav the chance...too late le....regret so much....~~~

9 days of not talking to her~~~i think~~

Hmm...i dono how i felt..but i felt...empty...and not used to it...i hav my own reason not to talk to her...coz i m afraid that my prediction will come true...that is 1 prediction that only myself knows....These 9 days i din talk to her even a single word...makes me feel uncomfortable...coz i m so used to talking to her everyday....knowing that she is happy....but now...i cannot comfirm if she is happy or sad....if she is sad....i hope can share her sadness...make her happy or wat...if she is happy....i hope i can be the reason she is happy...but wat to do...it wont happen...she wont like me...