I MISS YOU...day 41

HI!....lazy to update blog....plus...my parents dun let me on com so often....many things happen and i lazy to talk about it...all stupid things....not realy important....today is already 28th of August lor....so many things to do....so little time....


During the holidays....no school...nothing to do...except go tution all those shitt....aiyo....y H1N1 come at this kind of time....so unlucky so many people kena...and some died.....throughout the holidays and my normal life....i was thinking tat IF....IF she kena H1N1 virus....what would i do....when there is not much time left....what am i gona do? i keep asking myself these questions....and i cant get the suitable answer...would i regret???




I kept thinking of you every sec...didn't have the courage to approach you....peeking you from the side....is not enough...that cant be me....but....if i made my move....i was afraid that you will be frightened of me.....



I once made a bet with the "other me"....betting on that i can wait for you until you finish school...these days i kept doubting myself....weather this bet is worth it or not....its a bet for my future.....










I CANT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I MISS YOU!!!

I MISS YOU...day 31....

I cant remember any of the details for the pass few days....but i remembered 1 thing....is da day when i finally found the courage to sms her....i was so afraid to sms her....coz i heard rumors that she hates me all kind of stuff....so when i told myself....i already change skol ad lo...y scared....y hesitate?....so i just picked up my hp and sms her....


I 1st ask r u ** ******...then she replies who are you....(i dont wan to go in the details....) then she sent me one message....she said...not to put hope on her....its wasting my time....she called me to study 1st....then all those things we can talk later....i kinda argee with that.....BUT.....i wont do 1 thing she told me....is to dont put hope on her....


SHE is the only reason which kept me moving....if i totally lost hope on her....i would totally be a piece of paper....i dont want that.....i must hav a goal....besides...she is the reason i wanted to change back to smk s4 so badly.....>.<







I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU...day17...

如果你不爱一个人,


请放手.


好让别人有机会爱她.


如果你爱的人放弃了你,


请放开自己,


好让自己有机会爱别人.


有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,


有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.


人生中有许多种 .


但别让自己为一种伤害.


有些缘分是注定要失去的,


有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,


爱一个人不一定要拥有,


但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.


男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.


女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.





如果真诚是一种伤害,


我选择谎言;


如果谎言是一种伤害,


我选择沉默;


如果沉默是一种伤害,


我选择离开.





如果失去是苦，


你怕不怕付出 ,


如果迷乱是苦，


你会不会选择结束,


如果追求是苦，


你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,


如果分离是苦，


你要向谁倾诉,


好多事情都是后来才看清楚,


好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!






Who can explain????????












I NEED YOU ** ******

Da 17th day since i started to miss you so badly...

Today...perhimpunan....the stupid pengetua din come....my fren say go find prostitude ad....lol....then go back class.....tired....T_T....go back class....got 10 minutes pengurusan diri.....then i sleep awile...until the nxt period...moral teacher come in and call me wake up...din schold le...lucky....then study until finish school....waited 20 minutes until my mom come fetch....


Then where i go leh....back to school...to take paper things lo...haiz....miss school so much....then i ban yeng at the bus stop 1st....until they finish school....then waited until SHE come out....so leng lui....she changed her hairstyle....cuter ad oooo.....feel like hugging her....but i acted like i didn't see her...haha...but i noe she sure got saw me....feel....muahaha....then i go inside the school to find teacher take thing....then go back class....bang the door...then whole class looked at me....sooooo scary nia....



then wait until them finish school....then folow kar chun car go home...then go eat with uncle from singapore....then when he go bac...i ply com awile...then tution....then gona sleep...good nite!!!!!!!!1








I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!! ** ******

Da 15th day i started to miss you so badly...

Haiz....these days....lazy to update blog ad...so sien...nothing special 1....yesterday was Friday...i go back seksyen 4....but they say got match with form 3 at bk5....so sad....cnt go school...cnt see her...cannot release my stress...cnt ease my pain...wat to do...


when at bk5....plying with form 3....han shen and zhen yu become so called referee....but actually they don't noe anything 1...just go there....espicially the han s.....dono become referee...judge until like shit....zzzzz....nicole gan got go....what a surprise....she don't usually hang out with us on fridays....then we started hard in the begeining...but we owned the game....muahaha.....


after the game...those form 3 go back to skol...then we play awile....until kar chun n i decided to go back skol to wait for her sis to come fetch...zzzz...we went in from the back door...its not locked...lucky us....then went gona reach the bus stop...i started looking for her...i took a long time to find her....until i found out that she way siting on the side of the gate....the ledge there....i think its ledge or edge...i dono....wearing green t-shirt....then din tie her hair....so damn freaking hot o....with her pink bag.....sitting with her brother....so hott....so cute....just wat i like....then nvm....i n kar chun waited at the bus stop....then her sis came...we go home....i wanted to give her a goodbye kiss...but ...duwan la...>.<...i oso pai seh.....==....



then when reached bangau.....i n kar chun shoot ball here and there....until the other gang wanted to V.S my gang....we actually wan 3 on 3 1.....but they die oso wan 5 on 5....FINE....we give them game....lanci ma...wear stupid jersey....wana vs...think wear jersey can win ar....then at the end of the game....we won 21-13....so suck....just after my leng "chao gan"....T_T......haha....but they get 13 is we put water 1....they suck lo...their center become controller....so pro nia...


Then i go home ....tution all those shit....then sleep......









Today wake up....go eat breakfast outside....then go home play computer...then go tution...then do this do that until 6.30....go wei lin hse...her sis birthday....then until now...update blog....











I these 2 days hear my fren says that ** ****** say that she hates me....i don't noe is real anot....but then today i heard that she doesn't hate me.....can which 1 tell me which is real and which is fake?








I LOVE YOU .............** ******